Pieces of my life

2007-01-08T23:53:00.000+08:00

- missed -

miss me? haha... yea i finally blogged.. and i blog at this time of the day... tmr having my 2nd pilot test... wish me the best of luck eh?

yea... time to hear me and my long whiny stories... yea.. love problems... the main factor.... the reason why i blogged now is also because of that... can't always rely on meiyan for a confidante... anyways... thanks yan for all the help.

sad to say... after all the help i could possibly get... in the end... i've failed... ONCE AGAIN.... what to do? an ugly frog can't wish for a princess.. its fated.
as the story starts.... (btw.. anyone watches princess hours? the one that aired on channel 8...the korean drama) yea.... somehow my love life was pretty much as dramatic as that.... guess i'm also fated to have sad dramatic love life all my life eh?

okok... back to the story.... GUY A likes GIRL A..... GIRL A likes GUY A.... *U think its that simple?*.... out of nowhere... comes along GUY B.... GUY B likes GIRL A... and it so happen that GUY A and GUY B are kinda good friends... then also dunno out from nowhere... comes GIRL B.... GIRL B likes GUY A..... woooo... GIRL B is a friend of GIRL A... drama eh? this is pretty much the picture.... but soon after GIRL B left the picure... so its down to GUY A and B.... with GIRL A

ok... i suddenly dun have the mood to continue.... sry guys... will continue the story soon ya....

2006-10-14T00:02:00.000+08:00

- problem -

something wrong with my tagboard eh??hmmmm.... i've got no idea how to fix it... any one who knows pls drop me a msg on my email or msn messenger.

2006-10-10T22:21:00.000+08:00

- new target -

something struck me while i was eating my dinner...(not literally)... since i'm am single now... i should make the best out of it!!... i shall be the MOST ELIGIBLE BACHELOR!!! wooohooo.... yea.. easier said than done... any tips on how i could achieve that? girls any pointers?

2006-10-04T22:39:00.000+08:00

- long lost -

back finally... a lil time before i sleep...
i just realised something.. i've hit my 10000 visitor!! wooo...

been busy lately...(as usual)... busy doing sai kang(direct translation from hokkien = shit jobs)... yea.. doing jobs people dont like doing... aint bothered much about it.. probably when i'm doing the job, got a lil complain here and there...

was watching the 9pm chinese show on Channel 8... seems like the scripwriter and i have something commmon... the scripts... hahaha... i could guess what is going to happen next!!! hahaha... yea.. kinda find the show a lil crappy, a lil cheesy... a lil too mushy for me... all the love love crap...

one thing about love... never keep it secret... it will end up killing you.. ( yup.. you heard me... but NOPE... it aint happening on me.)....secrets... one thing everyone have.. one thing that can cause your life.. one thing i hate the most...

on a lighter note.... 4 more months till attachment end!!!! yay... looking forward to it... seems to me like.. its out of the frying pan... into the friggin jungle....
just booked my medical test for NS(National Service)... yea... i'm going to be a CHAO RECRUIT!!!! very soon...

quote of the day: Love is a load of bullshit, Relationships are chores, Cupid is a scam artist.

2006-09-23T22:11:00.000+08:00

- Sava Sprints Day 1 -

day started off real bad...

forgot the way to bedok reservoir... looked up on Streetdirectory.com.... saw that there is a way to bedok reervoir from bradell... happy took the train there... asked the train personnel there and... guess what? she said that there are no buses going there!! wa.... jia lat...

chiong all the way down to bedok mrt station...late....suppose to reach at 830..i reached there arnd 915...

and the worst haven happened..

was kinda late... so gotta rush...
went for the starting-of-the-race briefing... and then we were preparing to go for a run which we normally do... i was late so i haven really changed... quickly ran back to the tentage.. changed and ran back to catch up with them... was rushing.. so i didnt notice the thin green line that was holding down a banner... it was so perfectly camouflaged with the green grass background.... and wham!!! i tripped over the thin rope and.... i became superman for 2 seconds... and an idiot for probably the rest of the day...

and the result of being a superman?

( the picure is actually less serious as it looks like in real life... the wound.. is abt 6-7 cm long.... and it looks much more bloody then the picture.... thats y i also dun really dare to look at my wound when i was washing it...think i'll faint if i stare at it too long.. haha...)

LUCKKkkyyy.. the unlucky streak ended after that... what a start to the day eh??

the races i would say... good for some... and not up to expectations for some... all in all... wasnt such a bad day after all....

celebrated our wonderful president, Say Meng's birthday when the races ended... hahha... could see his face brighten up when he saw the surprise party we threw for him... wide spread of food... all his buddies celebrating with him... and the best of all... his girlfriend... man... that guy is good at hiding secrets from us eh?... i didnt know he was attached with none other than.... one-of-the-bimbos-in-npdb... geraldine!! hahaha.... surprise surprise.... was happy for them... happy for say meng too.... when will such things happened to me? birthday... girl... buddies.... i wonder...hahhaa... me and my wishful thoughts again...

the eligible guys society has lost one of their members... with only a few surviving ones left.... maybe we can all go join CLEO's Most Eligible Bachelor '07 eh? hahaha.. idea.

kinda tired now.. bet the others will be even more exhausted than me...
gtg slp now... gotta meet earlier tmr... nights everyone.

2006-09-21T21:43:00.000+08:00

back once again.... finally found sometime to blog..
kinda busy with lots of stuff lately.. SAVA Sprints(Dragonboat race) this weekend..
could only train at home... drifting further away from the team... guess i cant do much things abt it eh?

work's been okayyy... only for the occasional boring task the pple like me to do there... Stocktaking... dun really like it.. but still have to do it....using cheap labour like me to accomplish task they rather not do...sad-ded

then just yesterday.. Evangeline asked me this very very sad question...once again... "Why are you still single?".... and the only excuse i can give... " because the ladies around me all attached"... i feel kinda sad to be asked such a question... but no worries evan... i wont take it to heart. someone help to answer the question?

anyways... lets not get too bothered by the question...

and it also seems like i've got myself a six seconds of fame on the tv... as many have probably already knew and made fun of.... if u did not manage to catch me on tv or something... one advice... DONT BOTHER!!!

anyways... free time's over.. gtg turn in and get on with my tasteless and boring life once again... for 5 months

2006-09-04T00:13:00.000+08:00

- out of the frying pan... -

as from tmr onwards... i'm gonna be probably an overworked, underpaid( or rather not very well paid... cos if i say that i'm underpaid.. many pple will probably bash me up or something) worker... at Eurocopter.. and guess where it is? its at LOYANG!!!! wooooo... the other end of singapore!!! and its not for days and weeks... its for arnd 5-6 mths!!! arghhhhhh... the travel time!!

alright then .. enough of ma complaining... think i'm gonna turn in before i end up goin for attachment on the first day looking like a zombie or something.

* will still try to blog freq... so loyal readers pls stay tuned!!*

2006-08-31T02:04:00.000+08:00

will be working at the IT Fair COMEX at EXPO from today onwards till sun.. be sure to come find me!!! haha.. will be working under DigiLand... selling network hard disk... make sure come support me ya?

*updated news... i'm at exhibit no. 4710... be sure to come and spend some money here on my store ya?*

2006-08-22T21:15:00.000+08:00

- reminisce -

i just dreamt abt her once again.. a pleasant dream.. wished the dream could go on forever... it feels like a flashback... feels so real... her touch... her hands.. her soft lucious lips...still deeply in love ...i guess somethings.. no matter how hard you try, its never gonna erase from your memory eh?

caught the film CLICK, all i can say.. its a wonderful wonderful movie... hmmm.. hilarious and touching at the same time... how i wonder i could have such a remote... would i rewind back to the past? or fast forward into the future? ... what would you do if u had such a remote?

but at that moment after the movie, i wished i could use that remote, rewind back 3 yrs, and undo whateva i have done wrong... how much i wished she could be back into my arms... but none of it is gonna happen... the remote or her... never gonna happen. no harm dreaming abt it aye?

if i could fastforward... hmmm.... think i dun really wanna fast forward any part of my life... think my life's pretty short to fastforward...

anyways i've decided to upload some of the pics from the movie.. mainly on the main characters..... and i wonder... why do Hollywood always put gorgeous looking pple in movies? sad... u probably dun see such gorgeous looking pple arnd very often eh? trust me on this...they are drop dead gorgeous... i mean the ladies.

[ he's da man!!! ]

[ his gorgeous looking wife!! how i wish..]

[ his cute daughter who grows up to become....]

[ grows up to become soooo hot!!!!]

[ and so happens that his son grows up to become good looking, and also married to a gorgeous looking lady.]

[ the oh-so-friggin-hot secretaries in his working place]

[ must i say more?]

[ look at that micro-mini skirt!!!! woooooooooo... alright i should stop drooling]

and last but not least... the last two pics that touched my heart... so very loving.

[ if your loved one asked you the exact same question..]

[ would you reply like this?]

2006-08-14T00:54:00.000+08:00

i'm back once again!!

been a lil busy lately...

anyways... i already know the company that i'm goin IAP(Industrial Attachment Program).. its Eurocopter.. sounds like some kind of cool name for a helicopter eh? hahaha... i thought so too... and guess what? the company's located at Loyang!!! Loyang = Changi.... sooooo far away!!! omg... i'm like gonna die from all the travelling and waking up at god-knows-what-time.... but thats not the only bad news.... i'm the only one attached there.... no friends!!!! arghhhh!!!! sad-ded.

alright.. enough of sad stuff... lets talk abt something more lively... more vibrant... more colourful!! yes!!! fireworks!!

i was down at Marina Square on last fri and sat...to catch the fireworks in the Singapore Fireworks Festival.. all i can say is that the fireworks were AWESOME!!! i took some pics and vids for those who did not manage to come down personally and enjoy it... so.. enjoy!!

anyways.. talking abt the fireworks festival... its kinda infuriating to watch it with some of the "ugly" singaporeans.... on fri we went out side of this restaurant near the big staircase leading from Marina to Esplanade.... there wer quite a few pple there when we arrived... so we comfortably found a spot and sat down jus like the others.. it was arnd 7~8pm...

We were sitting so comfortably when suddenly there was these two couples.. standing right in front of the whole crowd... i was kinda irritated... i mean.. dont they know that they aint transparent?? even though the fireworks haven't started... they were like blocking those pple sitting right behind them!!! so inconsiderate.i dont think those pple behind them would wanna look at their butts.

[ inconsiderate ]

[ they didnt realise they aint transparent ]

so.. we waited... and waited... finally we heard the first explosion in the air... then the show began..

[ it started small ]

[ think this is the nicest pic i've taken on that day ]

[looks like golden rain ]

another problem arise when everything ended...the crowd!!!! sooooo many pple!! ( i'm talking abt sat's crowd, which was like probably double of fri's)... we waited for the crowd to clear a lil bit before heading for the mrt thru CityLink... bad bad choice... so many pple.. but lucky the train wasnt that bad... so got home arnd 11 plus.

anyways... liang stayed over..

sat was the last day of the fireworks festival.. obvious that i will not miss out on it!!.. initially i called quite a few friends to watch but... in the end.. only WE( yesh... the same we i mention on fri.), we consist of, me, liang and sida.... sad-ded... ate some spicy chicken set thingy at LJS (Long John Sliver)...{ which f.y.i isnt spicy at all...)

we learnt our lesson on fri and we decided to got there early... managed to find a spot and sat down...

ok.. the fireworks started on time... didnt take photos of it.. instead i took a video!!! yay!!.. i bet those who didnt went to watch it would like to catch the video of it? no prob.. (it pays to visit my blog u see... haha... ) i'm gonna upload the vid onto my blog.. on the right side panel.. in the media player.. hopefully it works...

anyways... fireworks ended...

and we're faced with the same problem... but double the trouble..
the crowd on sat was like... double.. or even triple compared to the crowd on friday... as we snailed our way to the mrt station... i practically dropped my jaw when i saw how packed the station was...

i've never seen such crowd at a mrt station since like.... i dunno when.
squeezed and pushed my way to the platform and made my way back home.... phew... what a night!

2006-08-04T00:16:00.000+08:00

- goodbye -

finally able to go down trg... but today's gym a lil weird i say... had to do weights sitting down... (stupid ankle)... but surprisingly after the gym session.. i also feel tired and worked out.... hmmmm... maybe i'm getting

saw this article on NPDB on our NP Tribune.... waa... the stupid writer... got his facts all wrong!!! Worst of all his article is titled The Fall Of Ngee Ann DragonBoat... wat the... so "encouraging" eh? isnt him supposed to be encouraging us? we're like from the saem school? his article is just demoralising... and some of his facts are like totally wrong!! pissed off a few of the girls who read the article.... all i can say is " he wrote the wrong article on the wrong grp of pple.. with wrong facts.... totally wrong!!"

anyways....can u imagine this song(the song i just uploaded, might take sometime to load) playing in the background when u see your loved one slowly walk away from you? sad eh? haha... yeah... i feel its kinda depressing too..

2006-07-30T22:35:00.000+08:00

- pain -

went to a chinese sinseh today.... wow... first time entering the clinic with me being the patient....started out when he applied some medicated oil onto the affected areas..... wasnt that bad... a lil massage... then comes the pain!!!!

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.........................

was screaming in my mind.... clenched my fist so tightly that any harder... i'll probably sink my nails into my flesh... could shout out... can only smile... dunno why.... seems like aways.. when i'm in great pain like this... i can only force out a "painful" smile...

abt 15 mins later... the 'tui na' ended... he bandaged my leg and i'm so glad i'm leaving the clinic.... the most painful 15 mins of my life.

[the aftermath]

2006-07-29T21:28:00.000+08:00

- unlucky -

finally after sooo long.. i finally made it to trg at 10.45am... then things turned for the worst.... during the run.. on the way back to SDBA, accidentally ran off the concrete path and twisted my ankle..didnt feel much pain...

it was during sea rowing when i started feeling the pain... arghH!!!
so therefore i can stand up and cox the boat.... the reason to why i am not standing throughout the whole time... for those who might think i'm slackiing and stuff... think again... anyways.... quickly started rubbing on the area... ouch ouch ouch....

then it swelled!!!!!!

right after i had my shower... damn.... swell till like one Char Siew Bao!!
sianz.... went to eat with the guys at Lido... on my way there... was walking like one retarded guy... hiaz...

and now it still hurts like crap...

went to the wateva plaza u called that... the one with ChinaBlack at the top storey... yeah... there's this very cute sales girl at Stussy!!!! hahaha... the guys also thought the same...

wondering whether she has a bf or something.... haha.. anyways.. was just daydreaming... this kind of cute girls.... and part and parcel of my life.. IMPOSSIBLE.

anyways... can forget abt getting her number and stuff... hahhaa....

enough abt girls...

i got a GOLD for Napfa test!!! wooooooo... happy. thanks to elf who allowed me to pace him during the 2.4km run.... thanks bro.

gotta go back now.. and do ma assignments.... sad-ed.

2006-07-22T23:45:00.000+08:00

sida just send me this very cool anime name thingy.... guess wat my name is? cool eh?? if only my name can be so cool in real-life... unlike pple who make fun of it.... my classmates probably know of all the possible "nicknames" i have... don't bother finding out.

My Anime Name is Gackt "Death Robot Pilot" Gowa.
Take Anime Character Name Generator today!
Created with Rum and Monkey's Name Generator Generator.

2006-07-20T23:49:00.000+08:00

- unfair -

why is it that girls come easily for some guys? while some guys work so hard to get one but yet in the end, end up with nothing? why? life's unfair.

i've began losing my motivation in life. losing interest in everything( except girls!! ).... work, play and even db. i hope this is just one of the passing phases in my life... and hopefully find my my interest and motivation.

everyday... wake up for the sake of waking up... go skool w/o any aim...probably just to pass all my modules... go db for the sake of going....whats wrong with me lately? i wonder.

2006-07-19T00:13:00.000+08:00

- her -

the warm welcoming smile when she greets or sees you.. the smile that can melt anything.... as you sit beside her... the occasional brush of her delicate skin against yours.. sending thousands of electromagnetic pulses to your brain.... feels... good.

as she looks out of the window... the look... her facial feaures.. so upclose.. so personal.. yet.. just looking at her staring outside.. you feel like this could last forever.. and for that few moments... you feel no stress... no pain... she can just take away all the unpleasant things in your life with just like that.

when she dozes off.... her cute posture... you wish that she could just lay on ur shoulder instead.... her long flowing hair covering part of her face... you wish you could just touch her soft smooth cheek... the touch.

when she asks, "dont you wanna talk a nap too?".... you reply " nope... i'm not tired".. but actually.. all you want to do is jus to look at her sleep... that feeling... that picture.. that scene... you know, will not last forever... just seeing her sleeping will take away all your exhaustion and weariness. Of course you will not wanna waste time sleeping. you just wanna admire the beauty.

all good things have to end... she wakes up... brushes her hair back to its normal position... and waved you goodbye... everything seems to fall apart now.... she's leaving.... how you wish... wish and pray so hard....that the time will come to a standstill... wish and pray what you could just give her a goodbye kiss on her forehead... but that aint happening...

felt like you were in heaven a moment ago.. now you're crashing back down to earth... facing the reality that.... she aint your girl.... she's someone else darling.

damn.

2006-07-14T23:15:00.000+08:00

- back -

once again... back to the bloggin scene.
its been a while.

the end of the semester is getting closer....one prison is gonna open its cages.. while the other one open its door for me... none other than attachment... out of the frying pan into the flames!!!! ouch..

anyways... gotta make full use of these time spent in school.... gotta get more jap drama from sida!!! haha...

anyways... been watching some jap drama lately....

first one is called 1 litre of tears.... damn.... very very touching and tear wrenching.... yeah... i probably cried a few cm3 of tears when i finish watching it...

second one.. Nobuta... all abt this very introvet, quiet girl that is the target of bullies... then these 2 guys decided to produce her into the most famous girl in the school... blah blah blah... story goes on.... relatively nice show... humourous at time... and some very catchy catch phrases... hahaha... "bye bye-cycle!!""kon.."

finally the one that i'm still watching... Gambatte Ikimasshoi.. abt this legendary female rowing team... something like dragonboat...

the show reminds me so much of the girls team... feel depressed when i think abt npdb.. and esp the girls team.

anyways...

other than jap drama.. proj have been occupying my time.... back to DDACP and all the tedious stuff.. argh...

things haven been goin well for me... thats for sure.
no matter home or school.
school, family, romance, work. nothing is smooth sailing for me currently... hopefully this period will end soon... or else i dun think i can take it.
i also realised something recently... i'm getting easily irritated... hmmm.. issit because of lack of sleep? or wat?

then recently someone asked me " so whats your future goal?"... i was speechless at the moment.. and i think.... and think.. and realised.. all the while .. i've been living without any purpose in life.. no goal... so target... no motivation.depressed.

anyways... glad to have friends by my side that still keep me sane... or rather not... they have been trying very very hard to irritate me... trying to get me angry... haha.. hilarious... they can try.. but i doubt they will succeed... anyways, you will not wanna see me flare up... it aint a good thing... that day is best not to bet or something... its not lucky. hahahaha...

nothin much to blog abt anyways... will blog more when i can think of.. or rather have the mood to.

2006-07-07T10:32:00.000+08:00

- absence -

missed me?
kinda busy nowadays... busy with db, proj, jap dramas... etc etc
anyways.. this post is to inform u guys that i'll be away from the bloggin world for a longer period of time till i get some free time.... so dun miss me too much eh?

2006-06-01T00:09:00.000+08:00

- Revamp -

gonna change the look of my blog soon... probably when i'm free..... which is probably not till a few weeks later?

these few days wont be bloggin... tests tests and more tests.... projects.... stress ah...

bday comin soon..... cant wait.

2006-05-26T22:47:00.000+08:00

Updated Wishlist.
(my birthday is getting closer!!!!)

1. My Mom and Dad to recover well.

2. $80 so i can buy a Quiksliver bag i love.

3. a new ipod. (preferably a 60 or 80 gb ipod vid)
or Creative Zen Vision (60gb!!!)

4. new shirts (Topman/Timberland/Polo/NUM)

5. a new wallet.

6. a new pair of Havianna's or Brazilian Praia sandals

7. A desktop and Battlefield 2

8. A gymming glove.

2006-05-26T22:43:00.000+08:00

- happiness? -

just found out that another girl that caught my attention is not les!!! whooo...
making 1 guy 4 girls... haha.... spoilt for choices..... actually its not much of a choice... its jus wishful thinking on my side

2006-05-26T00:40:00.000+08:00

- L.O.V.E -

was on the way home after trg, today went trg late. went off early.
was on bus 302, then there was this family of 6 on my right. they look sooo adorable.
the parents were both kinda plump, but surprisingly their kids aren't. there were 4 kids, 1 girl and 3 boys. the mother was feeding one of the boys some fish cake or something, biting it into smaller pieces in her mouth before feeding it to her son, reminds me when my mom or granny did that... you might find it disgusting, but i find it heartwarming.(find it disgusting last time though) but when u see another parent doing that to their child i can really feel the luuurve.

they were a bunch of playful and hungry kids, wanting to eat more and more food. the parents were also very nice, jokin with their kids and stuff, playing with them.... ohhh such a cute family. then it dawned to me that all these are one of the dynamics of love. all kinds of love.

was looking out of the window when i saw this young couple sitting at the bus stop. (god knows what they are doing there) they aren't boarding the bus, nor do they look like they're waiting for buses or cabs. hmmmm... is the bus stop such a nice place to hang out?

talking abt love and stuff, my bros and i were talking abt our exs earlier in the day.... brought back soooo much memories. guess no matter how hard i try to erase or forget it.... it can jus simply disappear.

3 girls caught my eye... haha .. finally some changes in my love life eh?
1st one... this particular girl, when i take 67 to school, i would occasionally take the same bus as her... she probably stays in CCK. damn.. jus didn't get her name or number. hope i caught her eye too!!! hahaha... *which is entirely impossoble to*

2nd.... an attached girl.... guess attached girls have something that attracts a guy therefore being attached and not single like me?

3rd... hmmmm... she didnt catch my attention when i first met her... its just recently that i started noticing her.... but she can be a real attention grabber at times.....a very special girl... is under a certain category of girls....HOPEFULLY she is still single... and doesnt have any targets at the moment.... hahaha.

but anyways...all these aint anythin serious... jus a few girls that caught my attention/eye recently....
(aint expecting anything to come out of it)

2006-05-23T23:29:00.000+08:00

back once again to blog...

couldnt blog for the past few weeks...
firstly ma com came up with the same problem as the previous time, something to do with the cooler unit. not having the problem the first time, the first time when i sent it in, the personnel called me up arnd 1 week after,telling me that the laptop is okay and has no problem.. so i was telling lies? no idea. my lappie worked fine a few weeks later and bam!!! same problem..

this time i specifically told the MEL personnel to change the unit as i dont wanna end up having the same problem... and guess wat? anyone could have guessed it, the Toshiba guy called me up and told me that there was no problem and the only remedy they have used, clean the fan. ARGHHhhhHH! thats all they have done? lousy service.
i'm just waiting to see when will the same problem arise, then i can properly give them a lesson or two.

anyways... back to the same boring simple life of mine.

it was Jieling's bday arnd a week ago, once again, my blessings to you...
here are some pics taken on the day of her bday in practical!!

{ the queen of the day... with the practical slip as her sash!!}

{ the queen receiving her gift of the day... a kiss!! scandalous!!}

{ beauties and the beast }

anyways...

next on... the fashion statement day.
was wearing a white polo to school one of the days,so happened that Sida had a tie with him, i wore the tie with my polo and i felt that it looked good!!! woohoo... never seen people weraing liddat before, i've created a fashion statement!! woohooo... saw many people staring at me when i went canteen and ate my lunch
must be i'm too cool..

anyways, i wasnt the only one that created a fashion statement that day, my bro Ervin also created another fashion statement, a guy wearing a earing on one ear... it might be common, BUT wait till u see wat kind of earrings i'm talking about..

alright enough of the details, let the picture do the talking.

{ alright.. i know i look dorky alright!!!}

{ that is the kind of earrings i'm talking about!!}

(CLICK HERE TO SEE THE BEST FASHION STATEMENT OF THE CENTURY!!!)

2006-05-15T20:22:00.000+08:00

- dumb -

was sitting down having my dinner, was surfing thru the channels when i stop by Channel 8, they were having this Monkey God show again.... and after watching it till it ended the episode, it made me realised something. I HATE CHINA TV SERIES!!!!

i happen to watch this particular scene whereby this lady was sobbing and drinking to her sorrows, and from wat i have seen, it seems that she has a wound on her left shoulder thats probably slashed by her loved one. then suddenly dunno wat came over her, she took her wine and poured it over her wound, then the scene of her pouring the wine over her wound repeated like for a whole frigin 10 mins!!!! they kinda repeated the scene but jus adding new flashbacks , looks as if her small bottle of wine could keep pouring and pouring wine out of it for 10 mins!! its a magical wine flask!!!!

so for the whole 10 mins i was watching this lady crying her head out... probably her tears are also unlimited too?

and worst of all its a s'pore and china collaboration film... ZZzzz
probably tarnish the name of s'pore series.
to me, china series are always filled with whiny china women with SUPER high pitch voices, and their series always start off with some kind of a china patriotic song.
YUCKS!!!

talking abt the song, didnt hear the starting song but the ending song was a total turn-off. starting was okayy, talk abt some deity and stuff, but as the song goes along, it gets totally out-of-point, the song keep repeating these few verses in chinese of course " i'm my mom's everything, my mom's my everything, if my mom's not happy, then i wont be happy...." something liddat.

WHAT HAS IT GOT TO DO WITH THE SHOW???? Mother's day over already lor...
totally out-of-point song with a totally out-of-point show.... so whats the point of watching?

2006-05-15T10:34:00.000+08:00

yesterday was 14th May.

which was also 1 month before my birthday!!!

wooohooo... 1 more month and counting down.
its time again.... to compile my wishlist!!!!
and this time HOPEFULLY someone will fulfill some of the wishes.

1. My Mom and Dad to recover well.

2. $80 so i can buy a bag i love.(forgot the brand, either billabong or ripcurl)

3. a new ipod. (preferably a 60 or 80 gb ipod vid)

4. new shirts (Topman?Timberland?Polo?)

5. a new wallet.

6. a new pair of Havianna's sandals or Brazilian Praia sandals

7. a new desktop

thats all i can think of now... haha.. will update it whenever i think of something new.. hahahaa

2006-05-15T10:19:00.000+08:00

yesterday was Mother's day.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to all mothers out there!!!
Thanks for all the love and care u showered us!!

anyways, on Mother's day we still had trg, didn't complain, as a matter of fact, i kinda like yesterday's trg, could see the girls improving, very happy. can see the guys team improving too!!

hoping,praying to get champions this year, its our june race already.

after trg, went for dinner at the usual place.
a vegetarian restaurant, Ling Zhi.
and for those who still doesnt know, my parents are vegetarians.
had this mushroom steamboat buffet.i think all the mushroom i simply ate yesterday can amt to the same amt i'll probably eat for a week or so.

(notice the huge heap of golden mushrooms? i ate it all!!)

had a great time there, ate like crazy.

2006-05-12T10:43:00.000+08:00

- Vesak -

Today's Vesak Day!!
Public holiday!!

me being a buddhist too, wishes all the other buddhist out there in the world,
a Happy Vesak Day!!

2006-05-12T10:39:00.000+08:00

wonder what me and my classmates do other than listening to class??

yeah... u guessed it... we "visualise" what the teacher is teaching on the board!!

2006-05-07T19:33:00.000+08:00

yesterday was Nan Nan's birthday!!!
sry babe, couldn't wish u a happy birthday personally. so here's my way.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH NAN!!!!

may all your wishes come true.
and may u stay happy and smiley always.

(can only give you your cake this way... hahaha)

2006-05-01T02:07:00.000+08:00

my life is screwed up.

someone

save

me

2006-05-01T01:58:00.000+08:00

- thoughts and dreams -

recently i've started dreaming, its kind of weird because i've not dreamed(not daydreaming) for a very long time. and when i finally started this chain of dreams, it started off good!!!

first dream i had, dreamt of this girl, real pretty, gorgeous blah blah.... was happy with her.... so happy when my blasted alarm clock shot my dreams into pieces. damn the alarm..... i could still be happily ever after in my dreams.

then i had this dream again... this time.. yeah... as u can expect... a girl again.
this time... i can kind of make out who she is.... i've seen her somewhere... but have no idea of her name. this time... the dream... was the same!!! wooohooo... but it started off a lil... i would say... jumpy?exciting??
was kind of chasing down someone... like some action movie... with guns and stuff... and before u know.... end up in the arms of this babelicious ladieeee!!! didn't know how or why i ended up there... but it felt good, never felt this feeling for like aeons ago. but anyhow.. good things never last. woke up. i can only faintly remember the touch of her skin.... the sweet scent of her body... gentle touich of her hands....hahaha...

these dreams.... does it mean anything?? i dunno, someone tell me?

2006-05-01T01:55:00.000+08:00

- problems -

i'm happy that people find me or confide to me when they have problems, i'm really glad they do.
but when i'm already in shit up to my nose.... it aint the best of timing.
if u think ur life is screwed up, try to live in mine.

2006-05-01T01:52:00.000+08:00

- Unfair -

why is the world so unfair?
one side hardworking people slogged their asses off for things they hold dear, the other side, people jus laze arnd slack and get what they desire.... tell me that this is really screwed up.

2006-04-26T20:29:00.000+08:00

my world is crashing down on me, i feel so suffocated, so helpless, so in pain, yet i cant do anything to stop it.
where is my pillar of support when i need it the most? i cant carry the weight of the world on my back.

save me.

2006-04-23T16:31:00.000+08:00

- back -

hey guys!!
i'm back... yeah... back to the blogging world.... these few weeks of absence is due to lots of factors... firstly i have training camp... then my laptop came up all weird and last but not least... work.

training camp....
it ended arnd the same time last week for training camp.the camp itself was good i thought. train hard when we have to... play hard when its time... its good. first nite... guys went for a nite jog... not much of a jog... turn out to be quite hell-ish i say... my legs were crying for help when the "jog" ended. then Say Meng said somethin that probably scared the shits out of lots of guys." this is just the beginning.... there's more tmr"... woohooo... talked crap till we fell asleep.

woke up early next day.... it was actually later than most of the trg camp we had previously. a lil warm up before HELL. Owen's training. shan't disclose more abt it... will remind me of the hellish trg... yeeeouccch.

that trg left us half of what we are... for the next 3 days. legs ached like crazy... counterpain(some kind of muscle ache relief creme) before sleep... same as ever... talked crap(*lets talk abt breast shall we??hahaha...*) till we slept.

Sat...
a lil fun and game from coach before heading to kallang for our usual sea rowing....
one Tp girl caught my eye!!damn..... she look fineeeee!! hopefully theres no Tp DB girls reading this.

anyways.... had some R&R... and BBQ!!! ... the food is absolutely fab-u-lous!!!
yeah... and we got 'killed' by Shun De's mom's chilli padi.

we slept quickly that night.... maybe its bcos of all the food we ate.

Sunday...
was almost same as sat... sea rowing... and i have to say... the girls are getting better!!! so proud of u girls.
then before we know.... 4 days 3 nights have passed... time to break camp... headed to KFC for some feast... woohoo... ate like we never ate for months. they have this scratch and win thingy going on... and no doubt we all got the same prize... free 1 regular whipped potato... ZZzz.

next up...
my lappie was acting all weird and stuff on the day of book in for trg camp. some dunno what cooler unit got problem... so i sent for servicing. and guess what? the person called me one day during work and told me..." erm... the laptop u sent in is okay.. there's no prob...." so there's no problem with my laptop.. hmmm maybe my eyesight??? i saw clearly my laptop telling me abt some problem abt the cooler unit.... ahhhhh forget it... as long as my laptop is back with me... i'm happy.

i was also busy with work.... now in some kind of financial problem at home, so need the money.went back to acting again...guess who i worked with?

[can guess which pretty babe is this?]

[can make out who isst?]

to make things easier... i took a photo with her!! and him of course...

[HE IS DA MAN!!!!! Adrian Pang!!]

[none other than the pretty and gorgeous Fiona]

i also include other pictures...

[Mediacorp on the outside]

to those who wonder what it looks like inside...

[Mediacorp on the inside]

during the filming....

[camera crew]

[Mr Director.. lookin into the screen]

alrights.. there is how a set looks like.

2006-04-11T22:05:00.000+08:00

- caught in the middle -

yesterday started off like the same old monday.... i was reminded by Vivi that Li nan is arriving at S'pore.Invited by Vivi to welcome Li nan... i was plannin to go join them after gyming in skool.

was kinda late when i left skool, totally forgot abt the time when i was gyming.
took at bus to dover and was abt to go through the pay gate when i recieved a msg from Janise that birthday girl Yen was kinda sad and wanted Jan to celebrate with her. Jan decided to plan a surprise for her to cheer her up, so she quickly contacted the usual buddies, Jas,Ben,Chris,Jel and me. Jas had to cancel her dinner, Ben had to rush down from his work, me.. i was caught in between the two sides, Li nan or Yen? hmmmmmmm.... quickly made up the decision to go Yen's as i did not know what happened to her. so my deepest apologies to Li Nan...i really wanted to go pick you up you know?

anyways waited at dover mrt station for Jan to pick me up in a cab and headed towards Holland V. went to WalaWala. Yen was so so surprised to see me when i was there... Jas came in shortly after, followed by Ben. haha... the only words she can say to us? " what are you doing here?".... after we cancelled or rush down from all places this is all she can say to us??? haha... jus jokin babe.. feels good to bring a smile to Yen's face when she saw all of us.

[ me and the ever sassy ever pretty Janise.(dont worry you're not fat!!)]

[ me and the emo birthday girl yen]

later Yen's HONEY... Yixian wanted to give her another surprise by poppin up. so we pakat with him and when he appeared, Yen was moved to tears... but anyways we had a great time there... ate lots of chicken wings and drumsticks....and a marinated garlic chicken pizza... which turned out to taste exactly like "char siew" pizza to me.

[ heap of bones after piggin out... damn.. all those fats i've to lose]

it was also my first time to WalaWala, the place there is nice... gotta go there more often to chill out... anyone? girls?

2006-04-09T23:32:00.000+08:00

- Bliss -

I've got a new hp!!!! woooohoooo!!!!
Finally... after so long i can give me trusty Nokia 6510 a rest..... my ol'faithful
I've got a Nokia 6280!!! a model i've been eyeing on for quite a few mths.... and my wish is finally fulfilled.... and this hp doesn't come easily... i earned for it ok?

other than changin my hp, i've changed my plan too!!! so all u guys out there give me a call anytime ya? provided i'm free that is... haha...
oh btw i've a new number and i'll msg those in my contact list, and if i miss anyone of u guys out... pls drop me an email,friendster msg, or msn msg to tell me... i'll gladly give u my new hp no.
one more thing!!! those with a 3G hp, that can video call me....... do it!!!! hahaha... so fun!!

alright.... think i'm too happy for words now... ciaos

2006-04-06T02:11:00.000+08:00

- girl -

jus did a quiz and found out that my type of ideal girl is.....

2006-04-06T01:04:00.000+08:00

- change -

same starting of the day as all wed, bring mom for accupuncture early in the morning... ZZzz
then the fun start arnd 4.30pm... agreed to go shopping with my bros abbas and rauf, levi's at taka having one hell of a sale!!!! sooooo cheap!!!! shop shop shop!! spend like there's no tmr... spent an hour plus there...got myself 2 pairs of jeans... so happy. now ive enough jeans.... time for tops... *hint hint*
went PS for a lil dinner at LONG JOHN SLIVERS, got dad a NALGENE bottle.

the train was sooooo friggin packed when i went home!! sian... i practically have to stick my face on the door!! thats how packed it was... and finally when there's seat.... i realised the train have to terminate at Yishun.... ZzZz... seems like someone's playing a prank on me eh?

anyways.... dunno what made me recall something HuiHua said to me a few days ago,something abt me being a SNAG(Sensitive New Age Guy). hmmmm... then i recalled why she said that... its because i wanted to choose Appreciating Arts for my IS module... hmmmm am i becoming more snag??? hmmmm hope so... haha.... then out of nowhere... i have the sudden urge to go to a library and pick up something to read.... READ!!! yeah.. u heard me... since when was the last time i WANTED to read a book? hmmmm....must be the year of the dinosaurs or something.... hmmm somethings weird... why am i becoming liddat??? first appreciating art...then now novels?? woah.... jia lat... must be going through another phrase of change.... actually the only change is that ive became more "refined".... art and novels.... hmmmm... and i kinda lose the interest in games... now the only thing i can think of doing during free time... novels + music = ultimate enjoyment... or chilling out with my friends... suddenly all these things are the only things occupying my mind... its not that it has never surfaced in my mind.. but now.. it seems more obvious to me.... hmmmm.. but one thing never change.... i'm still game for DOTA!!! hahaha... but not that much interest as before ..

am i really becoming more like a snag? issit good or bad? someone tell me pls?

2006-04-05T12:21:00.000+08:00

- memories -

a few days ago we had our NPDB grad dinner at oliver's place (as usual). seems like every year, the dinner is the same. food was not bad. but once it came to the games... (as usual) its kinda boring *my apologies to the organising comm, but its really kinda boring* jus my point of view. but the most enjoyable part is still the "raping" and pushing of each other into the pool(as usual again)... then AS USUAL... the guards will come and spoil the fun.... damn... why do this happen everytime? anyways... this year the graduating batch got a very nice souvenir, i might say... its a very original idea. its a small singlet with their name and a 'long' (dragon) printed in the middle, and framed up in a wooden/cardboard frame. very nice indeed.hopefully next yr, my graduating souvenir will be as nice, or even nicer!!!*hint hint*

i was surprised that the graduating girls passed me a souvenir too!! a dvd actually, contents highly confidential. but it was really nice of them. i would like to thank them once again for the dvd and the wonderful memories they have left for me. THANK YOU!!!!! will cherish the dvd like it was gold or something. i would also like to wish u guys and ladies of the graduating batch all the best in the future, for the guys, all the best in NS, for the ladies, hope that everything goes well for you.

**oh... btw, whenever i update my blog, i'll put [UB] in my msn nick.**

2006-04-01T21:07:00.000+08:00

- epidemic -

today started off early, needed go SDBA for some event to earn some "kaa-ching", its to teach some scouts, ended up with the mooooost naughtiest bunch of all. look like a nice bunch of kids at first but end up.... a bunch of lil devils. they even used vulgarities that i dun use!!!(not that i use any)totally prosposterous!! gave me such a headache to teach them.... but they are not all bad... can train my "endurance" with naughty kids. i dun even need to raise my voice with them!! (not that i will raise my voice to anyone), but its their usage of vulgarites that scare me the most!!! where da hell did they learn it from? i know the answer is very obvious (everywhere!!!) but, learning it? at such a young age? btw they are at most primary 4 kids only....wonder how the parents teach their kids nowadays. i will never allow my kids to use any vulgarities in the future.

lucky the event lasted for only 2 hrs, went PWD to have breakfast, was so so so hungry then, ordered my usual fix of fried rice . was quite full when i went for trg.
during the run, felt like shit all the time... imagine a huge plate of fried rice flotaing arnd ur stomach with a packet full of ribena... that must suck big time!! but the worst is not the stomach, out of nowhere, suddenly i have an allergy attack, these mosquito-bite rashes came popping on my face, swelling it up sooo sooo soo bad that it shocked ziling(if i'm not wrong).then started spreading to my WHOLE body!!! and i mean the whole body!!! the feeling is soo so unbearable, itchy yet painful at the same time..and i feel like my whole body is gonna burst!!! swelled up so bad. quickly ran back, took at cab and headed directly for home... went to the doc. and here i am.. back at home... on my bed with my lappy, blogging and resisting the urge to scratch myself.AAArrrgghh!!!
*so sorry to all the girls that i'm unable to train with u girls*

*peace out... gotta endure the itch and pain!!!!!! Arrrghh!!!*

2006-03-30T00:44:00.000+08:00

- HELP WANTED -

Anyone can recommend romance flicks to me?? i'm suddenly in the mood for some romance flicks, probably bcos i'm lacking of it in my life? anyways... it will be kind for you guys to give me some recommendations on any romance films u guys like, then maybe i'll go buy(or download)it... haha

(chick flicks are also welcomed... gonna prepare some flicks for the right time,right person you see....)

*all recommend-ers will be gratefully thanked on my blog*

2006-03-29T01:23:00.000+08:00

- caught -

have you ever felt like you have the best of both worlds but yet, in fact, you don't have anything? I DO...
caught in between two worlds.... seperated by them... neither here nor there.... nowhere i belong.

2006-03-28T02:45:00.000+08:00

- X RAY -

i betcha lots of guy out there would really like to see underneath the clothes of PAMELA ANDERSON. i manage to find one pic to satisfy all ur perverted needs.
*guys pls dun drool*

(CLICK HERE TO SEE)

2006-03-28T02:17:00.000+08:00

- Russian Dolls -

jus watch the movie Russian Dolls, its some foreign movie. it is a very nice.... and a rather thought provoking one too. it explores both the male and female thoughts when they are in a relationship, or when they are in love.

from the movie, i've learnt several things too. people tend to be shallow, always looking out for the ideal or the prince charming or the supermodel partner, but what they don't realise is that, these can only be dreams, and all the time while they are waiting, dreaming, the right one slips by.

people also tend to turn to other "things" to fill their emptiness,(for those that are not attached) they tend to turn to temporary fulfilment, such as sex. its only when he/she is doing such stuff, then they will feel loved or rather "filled with love", in my opininon, its jus like some cheap thrill. can never beat the real feeling of being in love. i think that sex or i would say making love is actually something very personal, very important and very priceless. i will NEVER make love with someone that i do not absolutely love. making love may even seem sacred to me!! hahaha... sounds weird though.

last but not least, another valuable lesson learnt from the movie.

Girls/Ladies that were/are in your life, are jus like Russian Dolls.(you guys do know what a russian dolls is right? or at least know how it look like)

You start the "game" by havin the first crush/relationship. everytime you break off one relationship, and start off another, its jus like opening up another doll, wondering " Is she the last one?", for the main objective of this "game" is to reach the last,the smallest doll of all, you cant rush things, you have to follow progression. (when i saw the main actor saying these few things, it actually make so much sense to me!!). And when u finally reached the last doll, you'll know it, true love. so to everyone out there playing this "game", have you reached your last doll yet?

these are jus some of the stuff abt life i've recently picked up, hope you guys will actually think abt it ya?

2006-03-24T15:53:00.000+08:00

- busy -

once again... yet another busy week. after SR 500, there's our NP regatta, organised by NPDB itself, so as u can guess its kind of busy for all of us, esp those involved. monday had to go down to teach some of the teachers and staff how to row and stuff.

tues was one of my bruther, ajax's birthday, went SAKAE as usual again to celebrate. had a wonderful time there.once again... a HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you again. sry for not being able to join u guys after the meal. was tired.

wed was the only rest day which i do not have any programs, but i forgot that i have to bring my mom for accupuncture, spent half of the day waiting and rotting, and getting my ass all numb and pain from all the sitting and waiting.ZZzzZz

yesterday was the NP Regatta itself and it was a HOT HOT HOT HOT day!!! got all sun burnt, and the worst of all, i got a girl's tan. (in this case a girls tan means the tan of a singlet, cos the girls in the team can only wear a singlet for trg, they get the tan only on the areas exposed to sun, therefore, giving a somehow ugly but unique "singlet tan" or what i say a girls tan)
okayyyy enuf of the tan... the race itself was a success, nothin cropped up. everything went fine, or maybe there was jus a lil hiccups along the way.
wat happened after the race was so so so fun, and it was probably the thing that i was lookin forward to from the start of the day. hahah... but i can't really disclose wat it actually is, but i can only describe it in a few words, delicious, fun, alcohol.

a accident happened after the "thing" that made all of us laughed out ass off. it wasnt really a serious accident. its kind of hard to explain to you guys anyways. but it was soooo hilarious that i laughed till i thought my head was gonna burst!!! hahaha...

however the whole day wasn't all happy, heard from a couple of friends abt some relationship problems my other friend is facing and i was so sad when i heard it.
Love for all i can say, can be a very destructive force to a human being, but it can also be a blessing form heaven too. was walking home after that when i saw this old couple, probab;y in their 70s or 80s, all geared up for a night walk. then this thought jus came to me. What thing in the world will make you still hold that rough and ragged hand, kiss that wrinkled and saggy cheeks, hug that all-so-familiar body of your 80 year old life partner? LOVE. yeah.. love will only make you do that. nothing else. love on the other hand does heavy destruction to a person too as i've mentioned, i've seen the destruction before and i've even experienced it too. but i aint gonna talk more abt it.

Love is something you can't leave without, yet it exist all around you.Its also something you have to fight for, die for.

2006-03-18T20:39:00.000+08:00

- SR 500 -

today's the first day of SR 500, one of a dragon boat race, its held in Seletar reservoir. the weather is hot hot hot!!! and the worst is, u can't really take off ur clothes and walk arnd half-naked, not like usual trg, actually its not can't, its more of a rather not, cos there are like hundreds more guy out there with better looking bods, so it might not be a good idea.

therefore end up half chao ta (burnt), my forearms are all tanned to red hot, legs too... the only other UNfortunate half, is protected by our shirts. see the word UNFORTUNATE? yeah.. unfortunate to end up with ugly tan.

hmmm... kinda surprised to see that there are also kayaking in the race too... so its more like a dragonboat/kayak competition.

kinda disappointed in myself over the two times when i was down coxing the boat.... i think i screwed up big time on my part. so here's my apologies to the girls team.

in order to "compensate" for all the bad performance i put up with, decided to make some mashed potatoes to treat the team.

1.5 hrs into making the potatoes and they turned out HEAVENLY!!!!!
woohooo.... talent indeed!!! hahaha... i think that they taste so good that it can be eaten solely by itself without adding the bacon bits....

made some for my sister (sadly can't give some to my parents as i have already added mayo *which is not vegetarian*)... hopefully the team, the girls team to be exact, to forgive my poor performance.

anyways... kinda tired now.... gonna us sit back and watch ARMAGEDDON!!! which i think is like one of the most touching movie i've ever watched.

wish us luck for the semis and finals tmr eh?

2006-03-11T23:16:00.000+08:00

- tiring day *for my eyes* -

trg today as usual.... saw some pretty girls on my way to trg, during trg.... the OCBC babe!!!! wooohooo... and a few more... *including those in the girls team too... (scared later kena wacked for not mentioning them)*

had my usual fix of fried rice after trg, met up with some of the girls and ken... had an interesting conversation with them... had a great time.. and whats even better...ICE CREAM!!! Bravilll....*the name's something liddat... the ice cream store in paragon*.... awesome... love the mango ice cream.... and its low fat!!! but it does come in a hefty price... $3.20 for a pathetic small cup....

anyways.. after all that ooh-so-good ice cream... home home home....

saw somemore hot looking ladies.... and some even turned and look back at me!!!!! wooohooo.... maybe jus thinkin " whos this ugly looking guy walking around here".. but who cares?? hahaha... a whole day of "sightseeing" sure makes ur eyes tired.... yawnz... gonna fall asleep soon

2006-03-11T23:06:00.000+08:00

- dazzled -

got a free day off trg on fri, mom called me down to the bank and wanna do some stuff ... got no idea la... then went to OUB bank, we went ot some special section... treated like some kind of CEO or BOSS liddat, then there was these two pretty ladies at the counter that came and serviced us.. asking us what kind of drinks we want... damn.... that felt good... really felt like some boss... with such good lookin ladies servicing us... then the place is awesome... didn't seem like it from the outside though... mom told me its some kinda of concierge thingy... wow... a first for me though... never been attended to before.

we even had a special account, a seperate one from the others... thats real cool.. then had this cool looking vault... but sadly i'm underaged to enter so... yup stayed outside.

went a lil shopping after that.... guess who i saw? DAWN YANG!!!!!! OMG...., the moment i saw her walking towards my direction... woooohoooo... heart rate pumped up to like 300%..... but sadly i guess she didn't even paid me a notice... when me on the other hand, eyes fixed on her.. lucky got no lamp post infront or else i'll probably bump into it.

* the girl that caught my eye*

2006-03-09T01:35:00.000+08:00

- friends or lovers -

yeah jus a few months ago.. i've finally "obtained enlightenment" and i started feeling happy to be single. and therefore, i was hoping to remend my mistakes but it seem to me that sometimes, when u really wanna make amendments, the chance isnt always there, once it slipped by, its never coming back, so therefore losing a friendship in the end. i think its retribution. so i'm jus gonna accept my fate.

and coincidentally, these few weeks, many of my single friends start having targets, and i'm so happy for them, even so eager to help them get together, some how i felt that, if i can't have a certain something, i would rather help my friend obtain it, feel so good so happy slowly seeing one after another getting attached and happy, i really do. so to all my friends/buds out there, need my help? anytime, jus drop me a msg ya? hahahaha....

but right now, i dun feel good, i feel like shite and nothings gonna change it.

2006-03-09T01:32:00.000+08:00

- incompetent -

i'm getting weaker... fitnes level dropping like shit. maybe i'm getting lazier. i jus feel so so so weak and inferior.

2006-03-06T02:08:00.000+08:00

- HOT "DOLLS" -

in continuation to my previous post... i manage to find pics of the two dolls that i'm absolutely DROOOOOLing over now....

i've circled them out so just to point the two ladies out...
can some kind soul pls tell me their names if u know them? i've tried finding out names and i got some... don't know if its correct or not.

2006-03-06T00:47:00.000+08:00

- relieve or temporary happiness? -

alright... exams is finally over... yr3 now... *hopefully if i passed both my MF and TF all the papers with the f.. all FFFFrigggin difficult* went to catch Underworld:Evolution.... loove the movie.. love Kate in that tight ass-kickin leather suit.. woohoo... damn she's fine for a vampire.... i'll soooo willing to let her suck my blood!!! hahahaha

always been interested abt vampires and lycanthropy (simple terms = werewolves). always very curious abt the unknown....

anyways... sat had trg.

it was a GOOOOOD trg... the girls performed well !! much to my atonishment. was kinda smiling all the way at the back. didn't wanna talk to them during the briefin as the weather was scorchin hot... dun wanna let them stand in the sun any longer. anyways... i was really happy for them... maybe its also because its after exams?? but who cares as long as they perform well... i'm happy. couldn't ask for more.

the guys on the other hand... makes me kinda worried though... the numbers always fluctuating... but i know very well that they'll do well. i have confidence in them.

hmmmm....now i'm jus thinking.. yr3 now *hopefully* then the seniors graduating.... time flies really fast... i could still feel as if it was jus a month ago that i jus came into NP....1 more semester till attachment.... then another semester of work and viola!!! i'm out of NP... hmmm guess i'm gonna miss school. for now... its the holidays.. gotta make the full use of it to enjoy and also to make some quick cash... anyone out there got lobang for temp jobs??? i need the cash!!

i can already "predict" the schedule of my holidays, Training,Gym,Housework,Games and hopefully work to earn some mooolahs.

recently.. my taste in sutff changed again... lesser of the goth/heavy metal/marilyn manson stuff... haha.. guess what? now.... cool vampires & lycants / leann rimes 7 her old hits / teen flicks once again ... but there's still the occasional urge for some gothic sutff... and a lil of manson... hahaha

ohhhh did i tell you tha The Pussycat Dolls rawwwk?.... They Do!!!!!! they are soooo haaawwwtt that they rawwwkk!!! saw their music videos recently and i immediately fell in love with one of the 'dolls'.. actually its more like 2.... both of them looks sooo soo my-ideal-girl type!!! hahaha.. the problem is that i don't know both of their names!!... hmmmm gotta find out soon... anyways if u're wondering which one i'm refering to.....both of them have long jet black hair....one of the is the lead singer and the other one the the only other one with black hair.... hmmmm it jus dawn onto me that... maybe i do like girls with long jet balck hair?. jus thinkin of the girls... makes my heart tingle... hahaha...issit me or is my expectations of girls getting higher?? hmmm that may jus explain why i'm still single eh? hahahaha

hmmm... today... i'm like grounded at home... dad out for a function, sis... forever out doin god knows what... so that leaves the take-caring of mom to me... gotta stay home... be a man-servant for a day.... cookin lunch... washing clothes... housewok etc etc... can't go sentosa to join Jan for her bday celebration.. and not to mention trg .... sigh... have to resign to my fate... can't rely on my sistern,never.... dad's excusable... so after lunch brought my mom for some physio.... waited for around and hr or so.... in boredom... my beloved ipod died on me!!! gotta bring her for some servcing soon... its kinda spoilt.... after physio... came back to yew tee... went to NTUC shop for groceries... had to carry all the heavy stuff all by myself... u can't expect me to call my mom right?? i wont so.... yup... had to do it myself again... and the stuuupid and heavy cookin oil that i as holding... apparently the handle couldn't handle the weight and it broke!! and it friggin landed on my feet!!!!!! ARRRggghhhhhhHHh..... end up i had to walk home both hand full of groceries... practically limpin on one feet... and supporting my mom by the side... damn i really look like some kind of servant... except for the looks though... more housework to do when i got home... then dinner... whip up somethin simple... a lil more cleanin up after that.. then had to massage for mom... hiaz... alright i think now u guys are probably bored of my day right? yup... me too
hmmm i think now its the chance.....

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* take the chance to earn some moolah.. haha*

alrighty then... thats all for my boring/tiring sunday...

6th of March now.... 3 mths and 1 week more to go....

2006-02-25T21:47:00.000+08:00

- Papers -

3 papers altogether for me this semester. 1 down 2 more to go.... after that... i'm yr 3!!! time really flies so fast.... soon gonna grad from NP, i can still feel like i have jus came in as a freshman...a freshman in np..... but thats all gonna fade away soon... arnd 6 more months and its attachment time... and before you know it... off to another location... Tekong.... it has already been 2 years now since i stepped out of pjc... out of your life into a life of my own... pain is still there....but no one can understand right.. so no use complaining abt it.

hmmm... now better enjoy the rest of my year in np now....before i become a chao recruit...

2006-02-25T21:33:00.000+08:00

- T.O.M.B Raider -

chanced upon this awesome pic of a hot babe as Tomb Raider aka Lara Croft in a recent game exhibit... and DAMMNNNnn.... she is one hell of a raider!!! girl.. u can raid my tomb anytime.... hahahahaha.... Angelina Jolie., you betta watch out... here comes another hot babe to take over ur place!!*guess many guys will be drooling over her.... and her t.o.m.b(Too Overly "Matured" Breast).... no wonder this game's a hit!!

** alright now... stop drooling**

2006-02-22T00:50:00.000+08:00

- Hectic -

hey guys... i'm back!! missed me?
alright then.. shall update abt the week of absence.

hmm... let me think... yeah.. i left off one day before Valentines' day. yup... the dreaded day... but on Vday itself, it doesn't seem that dreaded afterall. on the other hand... i even got a date!!! a date with my precious..... weights!!! hahaha... yup, went gym on that day. slept till very late like 12 plus *so that i can pass the day faster* ... so went to gym.. as expected there were very little people in school. must be all preparing for dates and stuff. me and my precious weights, best combination of all. tried to wack, but have to limit myself due to my injured wrist ( which is still injured as i am speakin now ). yay.... jus concentrated on my weights... and... Viola!!! 2 hrs jus passed!!! cool down and headed for a loooong cold shower, saw TERRY and SHURONG in the pool so i went to join them by the pool side. talked crap... abt dates and stuff... blah blah blah....

met up with my brothers (ajax and liang) and BI LING after that at clementi.had a very expensive meal of chicken rice.

hmmm.. after that headed home.
slacked and stuff... and if u're wondering how i spent my Vday? now u know... alright it might seem like i'm complaining but i think i'm gettin used to it now. but i does bring back memories abt a certain someone though. some memories jus cant be erased. so wat the heck....

to summarise the whole of last week... slacking slacking and slacking. started playing WOW(World of Warcraft).. any pros out there can teach me a thing or two?

this week.....

a lil less of slacking... a lil more of mugging. Marilyn Manson!!! yeah.... he's like my current hot fav idol now... yeah... gothic now seems cool to me. hmmm... wonder what made me thought abt that... hmmm who cares anyways... but no worries.. i wont turn anti-christ. something abt the darkside of life now seems very interesting to me now, gothic... blood( yeah... my ultimate fear)... and even my new blog skin... hmmmm wondering what i'm becoming now... some gothic dude? who knows? u might start seeing me puttin super thick massacra.... dark thick black eye liner... big sliver rings on all of my fingers... start wearing black more often (even though its kinda my fav colour)... yeah.... start observing now.... so any gothic chicks out there???? with their tight leather suits and whips and.......

i also came up with conclusions myself!! (based on my own experience and thoughts for the past 1 month or so.)

1. Do not jump into conclusion that a girl fancy you when she start visiting ur friendster pic,start chatting to you, start sendin love songs to you.. yeah... she's probably jus CURIOUS or FRIENDLY thats all. so all you guys out there who is facing this problem.... STOP THOSE FANCY THOUGHTS IN YOUR MIND!!!

2. Since you're single proabably because of your looks, looking ugly.... plain looking.. non-cool-looking dude. what for bother to dress up anyways? wear some singlet, some shorts,flip-flops, don't even bother styling your hair.who cares anyways?

3. if you are not the kind of guy mention in (2), maybe you're single because of ur character, who cares if your're nice? who cares if your're caring and stuff... don't bother!!!!

4. if you are not the kind of guy mentioned in (1) or (2), are you gay? can't find any gay partner? man... (personally i hate gays... think they're like the disgrace to guys, so what if there's no girls for you.. you don't need to be gay right? be a monk or something!!)

5. alright if you're not the kind of guy mention in (2),(3) or (4), how come you're still not attached? are the girls out there blind???

6. i think the females(mainly teenagers of my age) are getting very materialistic now.
( i remembered coming across this grl, probably arnd primary 6 or sec 1. she is a total "plastic" *term used in the movie Mean Girls to term those uber high maintenance girls*... she's like only sec 1 or even primary 6!! and she acts, talk and even dress up like one!!!!! omg.. what is this world coming to? where is the time when a date can mean goin for picnic or jus a walk to admire stars??, and presents of cookies or a plain rose? now.... date = movies (movie tickets($9 x 2) + meal at a very ambient restaurant + probably a lil entertainment of pool or billard = a friggin big whole in your pocket) really pity those guys out there who have a plastic as a girlfriend, i feel the pain for your wallet, unless you're super rich, oh what am i saying? how can u get a pretty plastic as ur gf if u dont have the cash?

7. i know that not all the girls out there are not plastics. but if your attached... then you're not included!!!

8. so all those single non-plastic girls... what are you waiting for???? go get a guy now!!!!!! you wanna be a nun or something??

* to all those that think that probably such things happen to me, your're so wrong.*

** anyways.. enough of the love songs on my blog... vday's over.... now.. my current fav singer..... i present you MM (Marilyn Manson)

2006-02-13T18:00:00.000+08:00

- Dreaded Day -

Alright... once the Lunar New Year is over... i knew that this day will come soon... very soon.... it has been awarded the Dreaded Day of the Year, none other than Valentines' Day.

As expected, no date, no gf, it isn't all bad after all... i can spend time in the gym.... spend some time off in town... looking at all the love birds invading town. same situation happens every year.... prices of a single rose can raise like 3 or 4 times.... fully booked/packed restaurants. ladies with their beautiful bouquet of flowers.... etc etc... u should know what i'm talking abt. for me... its probably some tea and books... maybe comic books. probably have to wear some kind of gas mask out.... don't wanna get intoxicated by all the love around... and when some guy or girl approach me wanting me to buy their overpriced rose..... hmmmm... i'll probably stare back at them thinking..." Do i LOOK like i need this rose??? Get it for myself??? yeah right...."

anyways... lets not spoil the love and fun... i've updated my blog with 3 awesome songs for such occasions.... On Valentines' ... the most impt "ingredient" is none other than LOVE!!!... so LET THERE BE LOVE!!! then next up.... On Valentines'... other than oxygen in the air... u'll breathe in love!!! yup... Love Is In The Air !!! last but not least... one chinese song for all my chinese song loving friends and couples out there.... u do not only shower ur love, or show ur loved ones that u love them on Valentines'.... even after Valentines'... Mei Tian Ai Ni Duo Yi Xie ( Loving you more everyday)...

Let there be love - Oasis
Love is in the air - John Paul Young
Mei Tian Ai Ni Duo Yi Xie - Jacky Cheung

yup i've uploaded 3 songs onto my blog... so u have to be patient...let it load... buffer.. then enjoy...u can skip songs by pressing the NEXT button...same applies to all songs... let it load ... then buffer... etc... u know.

I shall wish all the couples out there... Happy Valentines' Day!!! May you guys love each other more everyday... if there's any conflict or misunderstanding btwn u two... tmr's the day to end such stuff... for those who are secretly in love with someone..... what are u waiting for? ask her/him out tmr!!! Love is not meant to be kept secret.As for those who are still single... don't worry... ur time will come ya? jus take tmr as a normal day .... for me... i'm still thinkin of how i am gonna spend my day.....
go watch some movie in a couple-filled theatre? chill in a cafe...looking at those couple-filled streets? arghhh... dammit..... tmr's gonna be hell for me!!!! stupid valentine ... cursed cupid....

*oh yeah..... ENJOY the sings!!!!!*

2006-02-06T15:48:00.001+08:00

came by this very old song once again...
this time i carefully listened to the lyrics and kinda fell in love with this song once again....

can totally relate to the lyrics if i would have heard it a few months ago... but now....

anyways for the benefit of my non-chinese friends... i have spent sometime trying to translate everything to english... not really perfect, but i hope u can appreciate it as much as i have.

- Infatuation -

Hope i can make you drunk over a cup of latte
so that you can love me more.
The feeling of infatuation
you will never know.
Its because there is already someone with you,
seeing you and him together in front of me,
proves to me that my love is foolish.
you don't know the suffering i'm going through,
you can never understand it.
all the heatbreaks you have given me, you will never experience
but why do i still have to force myself to love your everything?
you forcefully bring down my defences,
quietly i closed the door,painfully counting my tears
knowing the fact that the day you leave him will never come,
i'm still waiting for the miracle to happen one day.
untill that day, you'll realise
that the on that truly loves you, have been waiting alone all the time
there was once when i thought that i will regret
shall not think too much of the unrequited
i will drop my first tear for you,
i will change my anything for you,
but i know that nothings gonna change.

now for the original chinese lyrics.

* it kinda reminds me of my bro when i heard it, maybe its because i think that the lyrics will kind of relate to his story too...right bro?*

2006-02-01T00:02:00.000+08:00

- Lunar New Year (1)-

Alright.. i admit la.. i was waiting for this day for quite sometime already, erm not long la... arnd 1 yr? hahas..

yeah.. finally the day has come,WOoooohOOOO!!

but before all the visiting and auspicious days come.... we have the pre cny party!!!
Yup... went clubbing with my usual clubbing gang, ewai and yan, me, iggy,zhou,colinn and yan even brought laine!!!! hahaha... can see charles's eyes opening real wide now..

anyways... i was kinda in a dilema on that day. 27th of Jan '06. both of my bruddas are having parties!!! one in IndoChine one at ChinaBlack... man... how unlucky can that be? so i can only go to one.... at last decided to pop by Indo... so sorry Ben.. can't turn up at ur party. waited... and waited.... and waited for god knows what... then some conflict here and there..... finally we got in.

Indo's rocking the house!!!! the Dj's good!! yan and i agree on that.... then it was colinn's bday on that day... so treat him a drink.... haha.. guess what? later he turned up drunk and stuff after one Graveyard!!! hahaha.. that fool...

i also realised something.... IndoChine's the place for perverts.... esp those upskirt kind.... can u imagine... Indo's like one level underground.. so u have to walk down a flight of stairs... a flight of transparent stairs to be exact.. then the railings and stuff are all transparent... then the bar is jus right below the transparent stairs... hmmmmmm... think u get my idea eh? hahhaa.... can imagine those perverted guys all wanting to go Indo after reading my post... hahaha.....

anyways we had such a nice time in there.....thanks buddies for the wonderful time

time to leave....

movies

2006-01-11T02:31:00.000+08:00

with the occasion of the new year, i shall give u guys the first hand juicy news abt the upcomin movies, real cool movies, trust me.... u won't regret reading it.

here goes...

to all the fans of the very popular very exciting graphic novel by Frank Miller, Sin City... u guys will be so happy, cos there will be a sequel to the blockbuster!!!
there will be Sin City 2, and i've even heard that there will be a Sin City 3!!!

Sin City 2(2006)
Status: Pre-production
Release date: Not confirmed (but trust me its gonna come out probably this year.)

Sin City 3 (2008)
Status: Announced
Release date: I think u rather concentrate on Sin City 2 first aye?

Next up...

all fans of the all mighty web slinger.... Spidey's back!!!
wooohooo.... this is gonna rock ur socks off man...

this time, Spidey's got new enemies, not one, but two of them!!!look out for the cast list to find out who are the villians this time.
this is gonna be the blockbuster of the year again. being the fan of the movie... i will surely catch it when it opens. any date?

Spiderman 3 (2007)
Status: Filming
Release date: 10.05.07 (keep that date down!!! i dun care how!!)

Cast(i only list the more impt ones)

Spiderman/Peter Parker - Tobey Maguire
Mary Jane/Damsel in distress - Kristen Dunst
Harry Osborne/Very agitated "good" friend - James Franco
Sandman - Thomas Haden Church
Venom - Topher Grace (venom's my all time fav spidey villian!!! woooohoooo!!!!)

next up...
anyone mad fan around? i mean MAD MAX fan!! the new installment of Mad Max is coming up!!
all the twisted metal in that chassis... all the burning tyres....is coming back!!

miss this?

Mad Max:Fury Road
Status: Unknown
Release date: 200x (can't get much info either, sry)

Cast
'Mad' Max Rockatansky - Mel Gibson

next up....
"my name is Sparrow, Captain Jack Sparrow."
anyone miss captain jack sparrow? the eccentric and funny pirate/captain is back again!!! i've intel on the 3rd installment too!! so i guess the threesome is gonna stay for sometime aye?

Pirates of the Caribbean 2:Dead Man's Chest (2006)
Status: Filming
Release Date: 07.07.06 (should be)

Pirates of the Caribbean 3(2007)
Status: Filming
Release Date: Unknown (why bothering knowing it when the 2nd part isnt out yet?)

Cast (more impt ones)

Captain Jack Sparrow - Johnny Depp
Will Turner - Orlando Bloom
Elizabeth Swann - Keira Knightly

next up...

all those sadistic fans of the very cursed and twisted movie, so twisted that it looks like it was planned all along, they call it Final Destination.
Yes!!! You heard me... the so very disgustingly horrible movie is back once again... when a grp of pple hve to face their own fate... and try to escape death once again.... will they succeed? we will find out soon enough...
and guess what? the producers and directors decided to make it even more realistic by making it into a 3-D movie!!!!( i wonder how does a 3-D horror movie will be like?)

sick and twisted.... ride of their life

next up.....

souped up mini cooper.... huge stash of cash.... thrilling car chases... all these can only sum up to one show... Italian job.... alright they are back again... to steal again? think so.... will they still have the cute lil mini cooper that took the world by storm? hopefully... anyways.. this time they decided to hit the country of BRAZIL... the country of green and yellow.. the country of Ronaldo.... what will the heist be like this time? we jus have to wait and find out...

The Italian Job 2 ( The Brazilian Job)(2006)
Status: Announced
Release Date: Unknown

Cast ( more impt ones)

Charlie Croker - Mark Wahlberg
Stella Bridger - Charlize Theron
Handsome Rob - Jason Statham
Lyle - Seth Green
Left Ear - Mos Def

next up....

"I'll be back"
the most popular catch phrase arouund.... u should know who said it. yeah.. that cyborg-that-doesn't-seem-to-die.... yeah he said that everytime one installment of it end.... and he did fulfill his promise.... wonder when will he say... "I'll not be back"... i wonder... but leave that aside now... lets jus see the 4th installment and see if there are anymore gorgeous looking cyborg like in T3.

Terminator 4:War Against The Machine (2006)
Status: Announced
Release Date: Summer '06 (not confirmed though)

next up....

another MARVEL comic adaptation.... this time...its not the ordinary superheroes with their superhero powers....its Ghost Rider...the ghostly rider of the night.. with the trademark body of flames... (somehow he remind me of some stunt man that set his body on fire and goes riding a bike)

*can't find a decent poster*

Ghost Rider (2007)
Status: Post-Production
Release date: 16.02.07

Cast
Johnny Blaze/Ghost Rider - Nicolas Cage
Blackheart - Wes Bentley
Mephisto - Peter Fonda
Roxanne Simpson - Eva Mendes

(its still a long way till it opens... so why dun we jus take a sit back and relax eh?)

next up....

Walk into a dark corner of the deserted town... the mother decided to search for her sick daughter in the dark,eerie and deserted town of.... Silent Hill....The movie is based on Konami's popular Horror Survival game Silent Hill.... think they thought the game is such a big hit that they decided to make a movie out of it....kinda reminds me of Resident Evil too...

can't get hold of a poster but... i found movie stills!!

Silent Hill (2006)
Status: Filming
Release date: 21.04.06

Cast (more impt ones)

Rose - Radha Mitchell
Christoper - Sean Bean
Cybil Bennet - Laurie Holden

next up...

yet another MARVEL comic adaptation... he has no superpowers... yet he's a hero... he has this magnificent robotic armour of red and gold... he's none other than... Iron Man!! hmmm... come to think of it... wonder how does iron man look on the big screen? maybe its some guy in some plastic suit?? we shall see....

*this is how it looks in the comic*

Iron Man (2006)
Status: Announced
Release Date: Unknowned

next up...

YET another superhero... but he's different.. he's probably the most famous of all... the most popular... the most SUPER!!! yeah... Superman returns!!! *and he still wears his red undies outside with his SUPER-tight spandex.... he never change..
its not really a remake of the older Superman movies or shows... this one shows how our hero started off... right from the beginning.... (nope... its not like smallville)

*Our hero*

*His love*

Superman Returns(2006)
Status: Filming
Release date: Definitely this year.. not sure when

Cast

Clark Kent/Superman - Brandon Routh
Lois Lane - Kate Bosworth
Martha Kent - Eva Marie Saint
Lex Luthor - Kevin Spacey

next up....

Any die hard fan here? i mean die-hard fans of DIE HARD? yeah... that a** is back!!! he never dies, does he? yup that very-hard-to-die cop is back again to kick baddies a**....

Die Hard 4(2006)
Status: Pre-Production
Release date: not told yet.

cast (so far all i have known)
John McClane - Brunce Willis

coming up next...

all u girls start screaming!!! because its none other than HE-MAN!!!! the master of the universe!! i know thats like some guy's childhood cartoon..... but thats not the reason why the girls will scream... look who's acting as HE-MAN and u'll know... he's none other than the gorgeous looking Jason Lewis!!! i can already see girls drooling over his poster here....

*such a cool guy for He-Man*

He-Man (2006)
Status: Announced
Release date: Dunno when, but its this year.

Cast
Director - John Woo (not confirmed but most prob)
He-Man - Jason Lewis

next up...

he has a very expensive complete dvd edition of the movie.... he has a very cool name... he seems to be very very lucky in all his shows.. he seems "invincible" after so many shows.. he still haven die!!! he's none other than Indiana Jones!!EEeeeeHaaaaa.....

Indian Jones 4 (2006)
Status: Announced

cast
Director - Steven Spielberg
Dr. Henry 'Indiana' Jones, Jr - Harrison Ford

next up...

my all time favourite Marvel movies. Xmen!!! they are so so so cool!!!!
anyways to know more.. go http://www.x3movie.com/ to know more.there are more cool super heroes, and not to mention the villians too!! love xmen to bits man...

X Men 3 (2006)
Status: Filming
Release date: 26.05.06

cast ( now u know who are the new heroes and villians)
Bobby Drake/Iceman - Shawn Ashmore
Ororo Munroe/Storm - Halle Berry
Warren Worthington/Angel - Ben Foster
Leech - Cameron Bright
Peter Rasputin/Colossus - Daniel Cudmore
Hank McCoy/Beast - Kelsey Grammer
Logan/Wolverine - Hugh Jackman
Jean Grey/Phoenix - Famke Janssen
Cain Marko/Juggernaut - Vinnie Jones
Scott Summers/Cyclops - James Marsden
Eric Lensherr/Magneto - Ian McKellen
Kitty Pryde/Shadowcat - Ellen Page
Rogue - Anna Paquin
Mystique - Rebecca Romijn-Stamos
John Allerdyce/Pyro - Aaron Stanford
Professor Charles Xavier - Patrick Stewart

next up...

the very familiar music.. with the very familiat scene of him hangin from a tightrope down into a fully secured room. sound familiar to you? yup...Tom Cruise is back once again as Ethan Hunt. expect more of the thrilling tightrope scenes once again that will leave u sitting on the edge of ur seats.

MI-3 (2006)
Status: Filming
Release date: Summer 2006

Cast
Ethan Hunt - Tom Cruise

next..

from the guy that brought u the all-so-awesome cool flick KILL BILL, Quentin Taratino brings u his next blockbuster horro flick, Hostel.*the poster looks creepy already*

Hostel (2006)
Status: Released
Release date: Jan 13th

Last but NOT least...

the war between the vampires and the lycans(werewolves) did not end in the first movie, the war will continue... for another 2 more movies!!! because i've heard that there will be Underworld 3!!!so stay tuned!!

Underworld 2 - Evolution (2006)
Status:Post production
Release date: January 2006

cast
Selene - Kate Beckinsale
Micheal Corvin - Scott Speedman
Viktor - Bill Nighy

*alrights then... enjoy the juicy news!! will bring to u more info as soon as i get them*

2006-01-02T22:47:00.000+08:00

- i'm no superman -

i'm very very stressed out now...

2006 started out on a real bad note.

i ended 2005 with a lil stress, 2006 started off with stress brought over from 05'.

now in 06' i've so so so much more to stress abt.
my family's in a mess now.... so am i.

last yr, mom's operation. that itself is already very stressful. she needs constant attention, and when i say constant, means every movement of hers needs to be supervised. then there was db competitions. now in 06', its off season so .. nothing much to be stressed abt. then came housework. the major stress. housework NOW is even more than before.

sis left for holiday, so the workload increase.
workload on weekends are split into 2, me and dad. these few weeks have ben so f*&cking stressed that i almost broke down. all the spring cleaning and stuff.then common test came into the equation. w/o sis at home, i ahve to bring my mom for therapy like almost every other day, massage everyday, housework everyday. not much time for studies, let alone gaming.

then when sis came home yesterday, she had some kind of infection in the large intestines,so she's now hospitalised, funny how bad things seems to happen all together. added workload... see how things go for me? now that sis is still not available. same stressful workload as before, now with new ones added into it. SIS.

think i have to look after both my sis and mom now.

first mom, now sis.

these few days have been so hectic that my dad broke down already.
i'm proud of my dad in a way bcos, his workload is much much more than mine and he can still take it, mine's jus a lil lesser than his and i'm already gonna lose my mind.

whats wrong with me?

my stars are in the wrong place??

wtf is wrong????

do you know how friggin stressed out i am now? NOOooo!!!! no one does!!

glad i learnt something outta this whole shit.... i now know why pple that are so stress resort to the easiest escape, death.

the guys in my family now are practically gonna go crazy. with so much in our hands... yet so little time and energy.

now... i dun even have the right to fall sick or disable myself.there's no way i can fall sick, if i did.... i ahve no idea what i'm gonna do. i'm not superman u know?my dad's not one too.

i jus hope that i can find the determination and strength to endure all this shit through before i break down.hope my dad will find it too.

* my deepest and most heartfelt gradtitude to those who knows my peril and has given me encouragement. i really needed that now.*

2006-01-02T20:13:00.000+08:00

- Bad Note 2006 -

alright then... here i am back again... back to blog abt ma new year's celebration.
this year i've decided to go sentosa's nye party at siloso beach.
heard last yr's wasn't that bad... so i've decided to give it a try.

goin with a bunch of buds. Jing Yuan and Ah bao, Joanne, Daniel, Li nan, Derrick and Sheryl, Jian Sen and his two frenes and Hanxiong 2gether with his gf.

it started to look overcast when it was arnd 3, when we have decided to meet at 4. dampen my spirits a lil. when i got on the train, it started raining like nobody's business. the train stopped a few metres away from JE station prob bcos of the rain. jus a few metres!!!!! and i'm gonna be LATE!!! anyways when it started moving, it prob moved at arnd 1km/h?? so so so slow.... i think if i'd get down and walk, i'll prob reached the station way earlier.

anyways.... got to Harbourfront station. met a few of them there. waited and waited for the rain to subside. got on derrick's car and 7 of us squeeze into his poor Toyota Corolla.

got to beach carpark, put our stuff in the car and we're ready to get our entry wrist band.

we saw the new attraction, the lunge ride.
so we decided to give it a try. basically we sit on this "carrier" that will bring us up the hill.(the carrier is almost the same as those u see in overseas ski resort, where pple sit on this bench like thingy hung on a tight rope that carries their skis and boards up the hill,yeah its almost like it.)

then when we're up the hill we're supposed to sit on this go-kart/skateboard thingy and go down the hill.

we guys decided to go first and have a lil race on our own!!!
hahaha.... the turns reminded me of Initial D... hahaha... off we go.... wooohoo... thanks to the rain earlier on, its much much faster!!! raced down the slope, conquering the turns with drifts... hahaha.. yeah u heard me.. drifts. i kinds drifted at the turns and corners.... but maybe i'm kinda heavy and stuff... it "drifted" on the sides of the kart, w/o the wheels!!! hahaha... no-wheel drifting... cool eh?

the ride was thrilling and exciting!!! wanted to go again...

*will post the pics up when i get it.*

anyways... played a lil game of drinkin goggles while waiting for the entry to the party. NYE Splash..... hope it'll be good. drank a lil only... trust me this time... i ain't gonna get drunk and wasted this time. jus drank a few sips only.

finally time's up and off we go into the party, its supposed to be mambo now.
we walked arnd the place...was nice... all the pple and stuff.... there were booths selling all kinds of stuff.... temp tattoos, food , drinks etc.
then we decided to get into the foam party ground. there are two different grounds for partying, one is dry, the other is the foam one.the music at that time was not bad, with a lil mambo with a lil pop. then... guess what? it got worse...

before i even know it... the dj decided to play britney's song!!! omg.... britney's song in this party?? No way... and its not even the sensual party britney songs... its the older cmi party britney types. i stoned at the spot when he played the song.
to make things worse, there were these 2 MTV vjs... some twins or something.... i can tell u... their screams and their high pitched vioces are indeed glass shattering and ground shaking types.

thats when the party mood start to die down... yeah.. that early... even b4 New Year!!! was so disappointed at that time... but thought to myself... maybe after new year... they'll play different kind of songs... like some R&B!!!nothin in this world can make me get on ma feet and dance like R&B!!

5,4,3,2,1.... HAPPY NEW YEAR SINGAPORE!!!!

wooohooo... its 2006 now... new year,new start... lousy start. started off with a lousy nye party. lousy music....

my thoughts didn't come true... the music got even worse..how worse can it get?? the inevitable came... house music... trance!!! OMG.... can't stand it no more... got out of the foam dance floor and we decided to walk arnd... look arnd. lousy dj!!!
he doesn't even change the music when the crowd started to disperse.i mean like what kind of a dj is him when he can't even hold the crowd?

lets talk more abt the foam party.

ok... lets admit it... singapore is really very very small. Jo's cousin's ex gf happens to be ma ex-school mate, cheryl. yeah.. i didn't know that and she brought along her other frene who happens to be from the same sec sch... erm kinda forgot her name already... kinda surprising to see them there...

anyways... when our party mood was still there... we had some fun with the foam and stuff.... playing with the foam.... splashing the water at each other... covering ourselves with foam...

but one thing spoils all the fun. the indian foreign "talents", or abbas would say cockroaches. yeah...they probably filled 3/4 of the party ground. everywhere i turn, i will see a group of them.... not one or two!! but a whole group of them... partying like a bunch of crazy chimps. then there was this one time when i heard form derrick that there was this one "talent"(i rather call them this than cockroaches), that jus grabbed an unknown girl away and left.... i mean... wth? then he told us to take care of the girls.

then we decided to go under the foam machine when it dispense the foam.a hell lot of foam.... then li nan wanted to pull me in, but i rather not get foamy and stuff... so i stand a lil outside the foam radius. then.... i saw this one 'talent' eyeing on li nan a few secs before the foam came pouring down.... i quickly slidded(yeah.. slidded... bcos it was slippery inside.) in and grabbed hold of her and place her near to me... and when the foam came down... i think the 'talent' didn't know i was in btwn him and li nan... he came brushing up against ma back with his all so hairy and disgusting chest of his.... OMG..... gives me the goosebumps even now.... i quickly pulled li nan out of the whole foamy mess.... then told her that she was lucky not to get 'scrubbed' by that hairy chimp.

after that i felt that they were kinda disguting... changed the impression of them on me... i always thought that they were kinda gay and stuff... seeing the guys so close whenever i see them in the train.. sometimes even holding hands and stuff.... but NOT anymore... they're not only gay... but they're desperate and disgusting!!! disgustingly hairy too... u can see a bunch of hairy chimps dancing like some bollywood movie... covered in foam trying to look all white and stuff... then when the girls are not looking.. they prowl onto their victim... 'scrubbing' and victimising the girls... ARGhhhhh... makes me so disgusted.

the next time i'll probably bring a palm or coconut tree into the foam ground and let them 'scrub' the tree all the want.... they an even dance their wateva bollywood dances with it.

there was this party jus a lil outside of the siloso party, called sunset bay *i think* where they play da music!! da kinda music... R&B!!!!! the dj there was good... he even mixed a lil pop and a lil mambo in it... very cool... so much better than the dj in the siloso party... such good djs should be in the siloso party... i mean like the siloso party is much well known.. u pay much more.. prob we deserve better djs right? but thats not the case.... the lil unknown party at the ouskirts have a much much much better dj, u pay lesser... for better music!!!

then we had an idea.. since we dun have enuf cash on us to get into sunset bay... we set up a lil space for ourselves opposite sunset bay... outside the fence for the siloso party. there we danced our ass off to the awesome music. R&B never sound so so so nice to me.

it was arnd 4++ 5 am when we're all exhausted and stuff....

decided to leave...

parted ways...

went home and got my sleep.

this is how i spent my nye... sucks right?

2005-12-29T23:48:00.000+08:00

BACK TO BASICS...

Alright... Christmas's over... no more partying.... no more alcohol.. and no more getting wasted!!!

today i've finally started studying for common test!FINALLY!!
hahaha... went skool to meet ewai,yan and sida to study.
realised that em3b is kinda tricky when u dun have the slightest idea whats going on during class...

but fear not... yan and sida taught me and stuff... and viola!!!
i've caught back all the impt points!!!

after a session at the library..
GYM time!!!

gotta look good for sat, beach time!! its been ages since i've hit the beach for some surf and sweat... and the bikini babes and all....
going with Jin Yuan, Ah bao and gang. we're gonna go the NYE party at sentosa!!
wooooohooo..... music... sand... water... probably the best combi for me... not to forget the most impt "ingredient"... bikini babes!!!! mwhahahahaha... jus jokin.

gotta work that body before hitting the beach on sat.. so its serious trg!!!

------------------------GYM-ing----------------------

decided to join Oliver,Jere and Hui guo at KAP for some dinner and second round of studying.

talked crap while eating... then oliver gave me a challenge.
" You gotta get attached before i graduate ah"

i mean ARE YOU SERIOUS???
if thats the case... i can say that its... practically impossible.
2 more months the most... 1 girl..
ITS IMPOSSIBLE!!!!! *pulls hair*

anyways... its jus a challenge... it won't harm if i failed it right?

alrights.... back to studies...
studying with oliver sure helped me alot!!
seeing them all engrossed in their work.. makes me feel "inspired" to do so... actually its more of pressure u see... hahahaha.

got down to work...
concentration + "intelligence" gathered from yan and sida earlier on = i've finished all my past yr papers!!! without breaking a sweat... mwhahaha.... feel so proud of myself.

left for home...

blardy bus took so long!!
and when it finally arrived... guess what? its packed like sardines!!! actually its only packed at the front... some inconsiderate commuters are simply not willing to inch a step closer to the back.

waited and waited.... mins seems like hrs.. finally got on the next bus which came like after ages....

met Cheryl on the way back home... chatted and stuff.....

feel kinda lethargic now....
hmmmm... movies sounds nice....

talking abt movies...
i've realised something really wierd.
alright... have u guys watched the latest blockbuster, The Chronicles of Narnia?
i've caught it... but to those who didn't catch it... wadya waiting for?
anyways... i've found out something.

if u take a closer look at the poster u see arnd bus stops... u see the white witch riding on a wadeva u called that, pulled by 3 polar bears right?
but in the movie.... her ride is only pulled by 2 polar bears.... so where did the 3rd one come from?? i wonder...
*tried to get a pic direct from the movie but i can't.i'll try again the next time.*

and secondly..
if u take a closer look at the topp right hand corner.
u see the siblings climbing upa vertical cliff or something...those who have already watched it... since when did they climb such steep cliff or something??

** anyways.. feel kinda mentally and physically drained now... gotta sit back and watch some movies.**

meaningful white christmas.

2005-12-26T22:22:00.000+08:00

hey everyone...

ITS CHRISTMAS!!
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!
and a HAPPY BOXING DAY!!

yeah.. 25th of December, the birth of Christ, also know as Christmas.
its the day to be merry, and have lotsa fun, and for those fortunate few, gifts exchanging. all those lil kids with their anxious eyes, dying to unwrap the gifts under the christmas tree.

but we should also set away sometime to remember those pple who had unfortunately died in last yr's tsunami, 26th Dec'04. today's one yr anniversary, my deepest heartfelt condolences to all the families affected.may all of u find strength and hope in ur upcoming days to come by.

okay... now on a lighter tone...

its Christmas!!!
i've waited and waited, for 1 yr for this day. i've abstain myself from clubbing for almost a year. *hopefully SANTA knows i'm a good boy*. IGGY and i have decided on China Black for this year's party!! we had a hell of a good time at COOC LATTE last year, and we hope to have the same one this year. but unfortunately, we are unsure of the age limit for COCO now, cos it seems to us that they have changed it to Guys- yrs old, Ladies-18.*can someone ENLIGHTEN us about the age limit for COCO? we seriously have no single idea.* alright.. iggy told me to dress up "proper" , which probably means, no more of my usual slippers,khakis and tee where ever i go. okay, got a long sleeve shirt, with a slacky black tank inside, together with my jeans.*i jus hate wearing long sleeves, makes me so formal lookin.YUCKS.

intending to meet at 9. emphasis on the INTENDING. hahah.. i reached FAR EAST PLAZA's bus stop at arnd 9.20pm. after a very stressful ride.*will emphasize more on it.*. guess what? i'm alone there, heard that COLINN has already reached there. but he's nowhere in sight. waited and waited, finally arnd 10pm? saw COLINN and ZHOU walking here. COLINN's already drunk!!! hahaha.... next came DARREN, then FINALLY the couple, YAN and EWAI which took like forever to come. IGGY arrived last as he has an excuse unlike some others..... hahaha

* back to the emphasis on the stressful bus ride. okay... i took 190 from Choa Chu Kang(CCK). boarded the bus, there was this small grp of malays, with their usual cool look, occupied the last row. a few bus stops later there came this relatively large grp of bengs, with their all so cool long fringe and their all so cool gold/blond dyes.all dressed to "kill", occupied the seats in front of me. hmmmm.... not so big grp of malays 2 rows behind me, a relatively large grp of chinese bengs in front of me.... stressful?? yeah.. at that time, i thought things are gonna happen. but lucky.... nothin happened, after a few bus stops. things changed from bad to worse. another relatively large grp of bengs, a different gang, different style. they have their all so shiny tongue/body piercings, with their all so cool ans spiky GATSBY hairstyle. then i saw the "GATSBY" gang walking towards the my row. they stopped at the 2nd exit and stood there, after like "showing off" their cool piercings and stuff. stood at the exit, back facing the "GOLD-AND-LONG-FRINGE" gang.
OMG... can u imagine the tension? i sat down there dunno what else to do other than looking outside the window and listening to my ipod.

smack right in between so many "gangs" i bet the other "innocent" commuters felt the tension. that was a hellish ride. with an occasional taunting* looks like taunting to me though* and the very wierd silence. no one's talking loud, shouting, or making noise like the usual buses, it was very silent, only the sound of the engine. the ride seems like hours to me.

finally reached my destination... and i was never so happy to get off a bus*

*back to china black....*
there wasn't the usual snaking crowd outside, but we still gave it a try. okay... the crowd wasn't that good, there wasnt as many chicks as i would have expected from black.the music was okay.... it got better near 3 and 4am. but at that time there wasn't much of a crowd. but still i was lucky.think only iggy knows what i'm talking.
anyways that was also the day to remember as it was the first time in my life i got drunk, got pretty high... and did foolish stuff.

stuff like this...

(i was really drunk at that time)
-seems to me that, warnings ain't for drunkards.-

yeah... it is the first time i got drunk.drank a lil too much of Vanilla Coke Vodka.
was high for quite sometime. and yeah.. did silly stuff. to know more about what kind of silly stuff i did, u guys have to ask iggy or zhou t find out more, i dun really remember much u see.

then wanted to go home arnd 4 plus, dragged a lil and i missed my last nightrider home!!! blardy hell.... the first bus is gonna come at arnd 6.22am. thats like friggin long!!!! then went back to join iggy. slacked arnd, had breakfast. slacked till arnd 6 when we all decided to go home, all of them took taxi, but i didn't decided to take the first bus instead, save some cash for upcoming parties!!

waited and waited for like 1 hr plus and finally the friggin bus came.

reached home at arnd 7 plus, mom was up already. hiaz... got a lil nagging from her. finally got in bed arnd 8.
had such a sweet sleep and a nice dream too!!

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christmas day itself.
woke up arnd 1 plus , had arnd 5 hrs of sleep from last night partying at black. was hungry, cooked some noodles for myself, and guess what? i had my xmas day, sitting at my dining table, eating my instant noodles, with absolutely no one at home other than me. sounds lonely? yeah.. i wasn kind of at that time. the house was quiet. its jus me and my noodles.

while eating, it made me realise something, i dunno why but festive seasons are best enjoyed with family and loved one. don't u think? but if u have none? friends are the only one* thats provided that most of them are still single. which unfortunately is not for me. anyways... that one single meal also taught me something that, one the chance is here, do not let go off it. if u do, u'll definitely regret it.its jus something i had came up with, from the painful experience i had.

got down and did some studying.

then a lil housework to be done b4 leaving for GERALDINE's house, one of my gorgeous looking junior. changed into a polo and jeans. didn't have much time to prepare food to share,so sry gerry.

met ELAINE,ZLILING at lakeside, JIANSHENG,BEN,SAYMENG,KOK YI and JESS came a lil later.

got there, it was kind of dark. but there were lots of food. all kinds, from small kebabs to huge bowls of spag. had quite a few servings. food was great. music provided by DANIEL was great too. ranging from kok yi's fav mambo, to the cool rnb. there was a whole icebox full off booze. tiger, carlsberg, abc,sadly no heinikken.there was wine and gin! there was jack daniels and martel later during the night. many turned up. had a game of drinking goggles.HUAI HUI was already drunk and was pretty high on alcohol at that time. doin the usual crazy and stupid things, screaming and stuff. ZILING's face as red like a lobster at that time!! same goes to JOANNE too.

i drank a lil too much from the game,didn't stop after that game, had a lil more. and WHAM!!! i was wasted.did a merlion there too.felt even worse than yesterday's. 2 times 2 days, i got drunk, today i got wasted! never felt like it b4, wasn't pleasant. couldn't walk straight, then lost consious of what i was doing, didn't know if i had done something stupid or foolish. therefore, i'm here to apologise to all if i have offended or did something that disgusted u,i'm sorry.

the last few things i remembered is EUNICE and NENG HAO sending me off into a cab, then i remembered i called someone to wish her a merry xmas.

then i remembered staggering into the lift, got into my house, saw my mom.(didn't even know how i manage to tell my address to the driver and paid the right amt and stuff) mom said somethin but i didn't really listen,then wham... emptied my stomach once again.washed up in my semi-consious state and got into bed.feeling like shit at that time. the worse thing is that in the middle of the night, i still have to get up to hydrate my over-dehydrated-and-emptied stomach of mine.

woke up just now arnd 10 plus.

then reality hits me real hard, mom and dad gave me a tongue lashing on me being drunk and all. alright i was wasted,totally deserved the punishment. then ma bro, msged me and said," bro.. u alright? what did u do last night? i think u owe someone an apology"... thats the point that hit me the hardest. did i do something wrong while i was drunk? wild thoughts ran through my mind, tried recalling, but i can't, damn headache. then i came to know that i had called XX on the cab, dun really know what i said. didn't know how i did it, i had erased her no. on my hp!! did i even punched in the numbers myself? alright... here comes my next apology, so sorry to XX for whatever i have said or done. sry for the consequences caused, i promise it won't happen again.

okay.. one moment of folly, needs so many apologies. doesn't seem worth it.

anyways i really think that this christmas, even though i wasn't a perfect one, i wasn't as fun as b4. i felt i was a meaningful one.

i've found out my thereshold for alcohol.
i've found out that xmas can also be thoroughly celebrated with friends.
i've found out that, chances are hard to come by, and when it does, do not let go of it.
i've found out that warnings ain't for drunkards.
i've found out that xmas for me, its jus a day of partying and makin merry.
i've found out that festive seasons are BEST celebrated with family and loved ONE.
i've found out that i'm not a good drinker.
and finally i've found out that this christmas was the most meaningful and very educational for me.*educational in which i mean, i've learnt lots of things.*

** this is a long post and thats all i have for u guys, stay tuned for my new year update!!!**

Saving trouble

2005-12-18T22:58:00.000+08:00

Christmas is coming!!!

anyways... if u are still thinkin of what to buy for me?
no worries!!! i'll ease ur pain and worries.
here are some of the stuffs i want so badly for Christmas.
(not in order of desperation.hahaha...)

1.MONEY!!!! money to party!!! ang paos accepted.

2.A Ripcurl or Billabong bagpack.
(hopefully big enough for my M30 laptop.)
saw this cool Ripcurl bag online. saw one on Billabong too, but can't get the pics.

3.A new pair of jeans.(preferably Levis or Guess?)

4.Supplements.(Protein shakes,Creatine, NO-Explode...etc)
(i need it!!!!!, hopefully there will be kind souls that will donate to me?)

5. A girlfriend perhaps?(mail order?? gf for hire??)

(as u can see all of them have long hair!!! maybe i have a soft spot for girls with long hair? being arnd so many girls but yet still single is a depressng thing.)

** i'm not asking for much right?? hahaha...**
**i even save some trouble for u guys by getting the beloved crumpler sling for myself!!! it cost a friggin $159 man.....it even has a name!!**

** A Dreadful Embarrassment **

You're Beautiful?

2005-12-14T20:27:00.000+08:00

i was kinda bored in school when suddenly this song was played in canteen 1. then outta nowhere i sang along with the song together with my own edited lyrics and it turned out NICE!!!

so when i got home i've decided to edit the whole song. so guy... pardon for the language in the song. its only for fun. its not very perfect but i think its kinda nice.enjoy. sing with the song!

Your Beautiful??
(edited by: the one and only me!!)

copyright of gareth's wacky ideas.

The Return (part 1)

2005-12-06T23:39:00.000+08:00

these few days of absence is once again because of dragonboat.

its an international race, Penang Pesta Dragonboat Race '05.
as the title suggest, we went to penang for the race.
we set off on 1st Dec, so so so excited.

we're all ready and set to go.
carried our huge and bulky luggage.then we took one last pic before setting off.

i went to the girl's bus.i was the only guy there, erm okay other than our coach and the tourguide and driver.... its only me!!!(man... its so lucky to be the girl's coxswain.)
had shuling as my coach buddy, throughout the 12 hrs bus ride to Penang.

had lotsa fun on the way, snacking on the bus, gossiping, phototaking, singing... esp the song I'll be there for you by Bon jovi. totally love it.
Shuling and me also did some Ka-ra-ok-ing...(dun really know how to spell)

12 hours seems pretty long and tiring when u're only limited to ur seat only. i had to stand up or move my butt every hour or so before my whole butt turn numb.

FINALLY!!! We reached Penang!!!! The scene was spectacular!!!

we reached our hotel 20 mins later, Corpthorne Orchid Penang.Sounds nice eh?

not so bad after we saw our rooms. but the bad thing is that we have to squeeze 3 guys into a room!!! the room itself is considerably small, with 3 guys?? imagine how cramped it will be. was glad to share room with my go-home-together buddies, Hanxiong and Treddy.

**part 2 will be up in abt a few days time perhaps?so stay tuned for more exciting stories from Penang!!!**

seeking help from up above

2005-11-30T02:01:00.000+08:00

did i mentioned that we went praying for spiritual guidance from the temple last sat before our race?

i went there to pray too. most of us did. the temple is split into half. the one we usually go and the other one which i'm gonna mention soon. the usual prayers for good weather , good tide etc etc will be done at the main hall.

the other one which i went to pray after most of them had left is supposedly the one that helps you in your love life. heard HX said something like "i went praying to this god at the next hall and coincidentally i met at girl like 2 days later, which happens to be my gf now." okay... i had to try it out. who knows? it might jus help me.

okay up till now i dun see any changes.... no advance in any thing wat-so-eva.
but its okay... as long as i wait and pray and believe..... hopefully it does happen to me. hopefully the right one appears or i have found her. lets jus keep our fingers crossed for now eh?

**Note to all the girls out there: If u think that the owner of this blog is cool, or rather the coxswain of the girl's team in NPDB is cool... or u are interested.... i say go ahead!!! go and know him better!!!get his number!!!! hahahahaha...**

Final showdown.

2005-11-29T15:40:00.000+08:00

these few weeks of absence from the blogging world is partly because of the preparation of the very very important race. The Singapore River Regatta.
its one of the most important race for NPDB. i've been training had for the race too, training the girls hard too.

the race was held on the 26 and 27th, last weekend.
last fri we had our briefing, to get our race tee, to know more abt out lanes, etc etc.... but the most impt part is the getting of IVP jackets. was praying very hard that i'll get my jacket after waiting for a whole year for it. and guess what? I got it!!!! so so so happy when i recieved the jacket from coach. he said:" Do your best tmr ya" . that gave me the motivation to even work harder and put in wateva i had for the race. got our race tee too, looks nice.

i could feel the fire, the passion, the hunger during the briefing. looking at last yr's race, all the feelings whelmed up inside me......

quickly head home after dinner. must have plenty of quality sleep.
went home and rest well.
woke up fresh and ready for the race. this is it!!!! after so many months of training... it all comes down to these 2 days. wore the "battle suit" and headed for raffles. on the way there, met up with most of the girls. mad hella of a noise on the way there..... girls girls....

then sat came, the showdown of the dragons.
same routine, same place, new faces. raffles place. OUB plaza. u could see a bunch of pple from far wearing yellow tees. look like a bunch of bananas. phototaking session!!! as usual it took up most of the time, poses, smiles, flashes everywhere. laughter filled the air.

after that, we had to seek spiritual guidance, we went to the temple and prayed as usual. i prayed hard for our guys and girls

okok... skip to the more impt part....
2nd event... girls open. first regatta race... abit nervous. but overall felt good. the starting was a lil bad. i kinda screwed it up. leading to the girls not able to qualify. felt like shit when i came up. coach gave me a tongue lashing. i totally deserved it. i'm so sorry girls... so very sorry to coach too.

became so so so demoralised after that.
then later came ivp. i made very sure that i will not commit the same mistake.
and i didn't!! we qualified for the finals. thats on sunday.guys on the other hand did us proud too..... the seniors esp. the juniors however wasn't that lucky. but its okay.... juniors.. treat it as an experience. forgive but do not forget.
.
sat ended. was so so so tired after that. still have to wash my race tee and shorts for sunday. the water that soaked the shirt came out looking like urine!!!! ewww... disgusting......

sunday came..... the finals!!!!

lets talk abt the girls first. we had a very very strong heats. facing strong opponents. and we ended up 4th. i felt that it was in fact one of the best set the girls had ever. but.... when we came ashore.... all the girls started crying..... i know they're disappointed, so am i.(once again... i think its my fault again.)calmed the girls down.

as for the guys. they really did us proud. the got a sliver for the IVP guys. the same event last yr that ended up in a tragedy. the guys have won it for our seniors.

as a whole SRR'05 was a good race. lessons learnt, experience gained.

Note for girls: To the graduating seniors, i am so so so proud of you girls. i know u girls did ur best in the race, so rest assured, next year i'm gonna get the medal back for you girls. i'm also very proud to have been in the same boat as u girls, u girls are wonderful. feel very privilleged to train with u girls. i will miss u girls when u girls leave. but dun worry i'll always remember u. as for juniors. lets work hard to fight for our seniors. work hard for them. work hard for the glory the seniors have left us.

Note for guys: You guys did NPDB proud once again. so so proud of you guys!! continue to train hard. lets strive for better results next year. seniors you have proved yourselves that u guys are strong, for that i give u guys my outmost respect. juniors, one incident will not bring us down, learn to get back form the fall, become stronger. work harder for next year!!!

packed

2005-11-20T01:50:00.000+08:00

its busy busy busy for me now....
dun have much time to blog....
but no worries.i'll be back to blog very soon.

anyways Christmas is coming!!!!!
*hint hint*

i need a Crumpler sling bag!!!!
*can any kind souls out there get one for me?my current sling bag is gonna become "individual" pieces of cloths soon....

screwed up. totally messed up. F*&ked up.

2005-11-15T01:13:00.000+08:00

this whole week has been emotionally and physically draining and challenging.
i started my own power training.... school ... girl problem. arghhhh... gonna go crazy.

firstly. i started my own iintensive-and-power-yet-endurance training. how? tues was the girl's napfa. did the normal warm up of 100 push ups b4 going to the test. pull ups was okay. went to pull a lil. then sit ups nothing much. then came 2.4km run. decided to push the girls real hard. ended up i was the one pushing myself to the limits, was practically sprinting up and down pushing and encouraging them throughout. didn't know if they appreciated it, but i was really happy when most of them told me they had improved, somehow i told myself that it was all their own hardwork and a lil of my encouragement.

then after napfa, i went straight to the guys gym session. endurance!! after napfa and stuff? no prob. endured everything through.tues- napfa & endurance gym.
then came thurs. now its the guys turn for napfa. napfa? no prob. wack again. pull ups improved!!! so happy, finally all my hard work had paid off.17 pull ups!!! improved from the previous 1 digit number of pull ups.but my sit ups dropped tremendously. must be all the eating and lack of abs trg. but no prob. after napfa. gym!! girls time to gym. i couldn't possibly do girls weight. so guess what? took the huge bar.( the bench press bar) then added arnd 7.5kg to it. if i'm not wrong its approx 15kg, and i used it for endurance!!!! its been quite sometime since i can wack gym using such heavy weights. and it turned out all right. thurs-napfa & power endurance gym.

anyways that enough for my power trg these few days.

then came girl problems.

ARghhhhh... lets not talk abt it ya?
jus know that the fact that i'm not attached to anyone... and therefore SINGLE and AVAILABLE.

so i've decided to jus sit back and not find anymore girls from now. now its girls come and find me eh? judging from my looks i don't think there will be any. so i think i'll be single for quite sometime ya?

** to all the hot babes/girls out there. if u think that the coxwain from npdb girls team's cool. go ahead and ask him out or somethin. he might jus agree!**
**special thanks to meiyan for enlighting me!! **

hari raya!!

2005-11-13T17:29:00.000+08:00

went to rauf's house on fri. was the first one there. its been quite sometime since i saw my bro. still never change. then her mother kept taking out all the goodies. omg... goodies!!! starting pigging out on their cookies and cakes.SOOoooo delicious and sinful.

then slowly the gang... or rather the family turned up at rauf's house. grace, followed by hwad and wilfred!!! ma bro that i have seen like for aeons ago. still not much change. missed him man... his lame jokes and stuff. ben came,then caleb and finally the ever late huihua. had something like a dinner there. man.. rauf's mom can really cook!!! ate like 4 servings man....

then played cards till we were so very late for our meeting with charles and kim yew at PS Swensens. so sry brothers.

had a TOPLESS 5.... woohooo love it to bits. its simply a sinful indulgence.

guess what caleb brought his gf to meet the family man!! our one big family. haha.. it was hilarious. i told rauf that her gf will be so scared of us so much that she might not even dare to come and meet us after tonight. hahahha.... and she looks so much like one of my sec sch mate, adeline. they look so simliar!!!! hmmmm... caleb had something for adeline in the past?? hahahaha.... shall not go find out.
anyways good luck to my bro and his gf,brenda.

guess this is the end of it. thats all for the "family outing"

**peace out...**

Scorched.

2005-11-02T13:05:00.000+08:00

the weather today... is scorching hot. i bet i can fry an egg on my head.
but all is not bad for such a hot weather. i got a good tan!

today's trg was erm somehow good and bad.

firstly good because i can see the girls pushing hard. thats good.
but when coach corrected the seniors stroke in a harsher way. i felt bad,because it shows that i have not done a good job in correcting and reminding the girls of their strokes, so its also fault on my side, for that i'm so sorry for everything.

anyways went to subway to have lunch. the meal cost a BOMB!!!! its like bread with fillings, drinks and some cookies and it cost 8 bucks!!! ... gotta go less of subway frm now.

was so very very worn out after all the walking arnd sim lim, with my bunch of buds. KY,BEN,JIANSHENG,TREDDY,JUNWEI,SHUNDE. we were all weary and sleepy when we entered the train. once there was seats available, we quickly took it and fell asleep almost immediately.

the sleep on the train was barely enough. slept somemore after having another shower. the weather practically evaporated all the water in my body!

nothing much more. skool as normal tmr.more movies tmr yeah?hahaha...

**peace out.....**

New teachers, new start..... new girl?

2005-11-01T12:56:00.000+08:00

to start off the new skool term. i was late for class, to make things worse, it started raining on my way to class,hafta run with my bud MARK to class together. then met Ewai and Yan on the way. went to class late together. another shrewd and petty teacher.(must i have a shrewd and petty teacher every sem?)

anyways.... next class.... materials. finally a teacher of other races. and indian teacher! for the past 1 yr and 1 sem all i have were old, chinese teachers. this indian teacher have a very nice initials.msn! thats his initials! ain't it cool? msn@np.edu.sg? coool..... he's one clever guy, nice person. hopefully teaches well.

next up... a rather ordinary teacher. nothin much abt him.

got a new overseas student in our class for a sem. he's from finland! thats pretty cool! i got the slightest feeling he's gonna regret it, comin to our class.(thats if he's the studious and hardworking one)

anyways.... its also till today that i realised quite a number of pple read my blog! prob bcos of my post abt the girl? hahaha...

since u guys are like so eager to know more abt her. here it is.

she lives at ______.
Goes to school at ______.
Her current cca is _____.
she's younger/older than me by ____ years.

*guess thats enuf info for u guys?? hahahaha.....*

**peace out...........**

HELP!!!!

2005-11-01T12:38:00.000+08:00

can someone be a nice person and help me find out the title and artiste to the song on my blog??? thanks.

The Maid

2005-10-31T09:01:00.000+08:00

couldn't go for trg today as there will be no one at home to look after my temp-partially-handicapped mom at home.sister's gone to cali gym, dad's gone for a course, me? supposed to have trg, but i guess they think its the least impt. so i guess i have to do the sacrifice then.

(don't know if jasmine remembered to tell linda that i'm not going. Hopefully she did.)

wonder how was their trg today.issit the same w/o me?? i wonder.

back at home same old stuff again.

wake up. breakfast.newspaper. housework.housework.housework.(with a lil games in btwn)

all the housework made my rough hand even rougher than before. with all the chemicals and stuff.... wonder which girl will ever hold my hands tightly again?

being maid today is a lil vexing and mentally challenging.

why?

can u imagine after doing abt an hr plus of toliet cleaning and stuff and u finally get to sit down. u have to get up and cook lunch? argh!!!!

after lunch hafta clear up EVERYTHING.

not complaining here. jus showing how challenging housework can be!

finally got to play a lil ps2. next came tonics.hafta prepare and stuff... after that more housework.

tired after all these but i can't go and take a nap. in case my mom needs me.
(by far thats the most challenging task i have to do!!!!)

the weather is also another factor. with the sweltering heat. melting down ur mental strength, making ur eyebags so heavy that u feel like closing your eyes and take a nap. but NOOOoooOO ... i can't. have to endure!!!!

all for the sake of mom. jus so that she could recover faster. man... i'm so proud of myself sometimes. haahahaha...

finally my dad's back from his course!!DINNER!!!!

okok gtg and gorge on my dinner now!!!ciaos..

*peace out....*

WEAK.

2005-10-30T18:24:00.000+08:00

the weather was so so so hot and sunny yesterday.
lucky for the tanning oil, or i will prob end up like one dehydrated cucumber.
but after the girls trg, i had to do OT, and cox for the guys.its all been gd. end up with a nice red/brown tan after everything.

3 more weeks to regatta. better peak now or never!!!! gotta wack serious gym when skool starts.(hopefully i will carry out what i have jus said)

dinner at pwd was satisfying, and worth every single cent. had a hearty meal and even free takeaways!!! hahaha.....(shhhhh.... dun tell anyone abt it eh?)

anyways was kinda bored playing games jus now so i went blog hopping. hopped to Janice(whom i think prefers to be called janise now) blog and visited her love diary. reminded me of the old times i had with XX. can relate some of the stuff there to mine. but whats over is over eh? seems to me that putting everythin behind me is near impossible. at that particular moment.i jus felt an urge to open up my memories drawer. its actually a drawer that contains many memorable stuff. letters from buddies, sistas, even love letters. lil somethin we shared. everything's inside. then i took out a metal container where i had put all the letters and notes i had during my sec sch period. brought me back lots of nice and somehow pleasant memories.( i even laughed to myself after rading some of it. reminds me that i'm such a loser in love, some thing never change eh?)

my heart is so so so fragile and weak. mind is so powerless to old memories. i'll crumble under all these. matters of the heart will have the biggest blow on me.

a chinese saying, do not care abt what u have now, remember what u had before.( pardon the translation.) i myself don't really belief in that crap. it doesnt work on me.

so so so sad. sad because my heart is such a prey to all these feelings.my heart is so fickle, so weak.

maybe my heart have to go thru all these torture so that it will become stronger? (hafta admit that when it comes to feelings and relationship, i might lose out to a girl.)i'm emotionally weak.

anyways enuf of the love shit.

been tormented my the word love. twisted by the harshness of reality.

when will i get over it? only time will tell.

jus when i mentioned abt falling in love with someone's smile the day before yesterday, not i'm talkng abt stuff that happened way before. told ya... my heart is weak.(not in terms of disease and stuff)

anyways.....

gotta focus on my studies and trg. skool's reopening on monday. no more waking up at lunch time. no more day long gaming. studies, trg, regatta(for those who don't know, its NPDB's upcoming race.) and hopefully, a new love will blossom??

can't wait to see my dysfunctional class once again. missed all of my buds.

**peace out...****

fly away.

2005-10-29T10:34:00.000+08:00

its been a week since i blogged.

its been the same old week as the others. mom and training. mom and training. i've pushed away so many parties that i feel so so so guilty and sorry. sry to all those who had called me out for meet-ups and parties. i'm really sry. a man gotta do what a man gotta do rite?

trainings been good. i think. the girls are improving and i'm happy. issit because of me and ah bao's training? i hope so.

it's also been one of the very very extraordinary week. because i heard of a news that SOMEONE in the team decided to do something foolish, something so foolish that it'll cause so much trouble that he could not imagine. so much shit right up to his nose. he decided to brag, boast, criticise.. everything the coach has told us not to. he practically made enemies with all the institution u can think of. NYP,SP,TP,RP... u name it u got it.

that GUY, i think didn't even use his brains before he even post or type his entry on his blog.i was so so so furious when i heard of it. and man... it could be an event of the century to see me.... getting all fired up and ready to do some cursing and swearing on someone. but lucky him. he finally used some part of his brains,(i don't know where) to delete his entry. (Note to him: now u know how it feels to be criticised in the public?) even after he deleted it, i am still angry abt it, up till now. pple might have forgiven him, but me? i dun think its over, i anticipate somemore "things" up his sleeve.(jus a feeling, prove me wrong then)

he had made countless enemies overnight, somehow or another i'm part of it. forgive me if u think that i'm petty or that hating ur team mate is wrong. its jus hard to forgive someone after he had done such cruel stuff. all i can say now to him is, pray hard that ur team mates, most of them, wil forgive u.

anways, enuf of that despicable guy, talking abt him makes my blood boil.

at least something good happened to me last week.

hahaha.... something real good.

i think.... i think... i am starting to fancy this girl. feels good. but don't really know if i should let this feeling continue, let my feelings bring me further. i really don't know.don't know if she fancies any other guy. i wonder, why is this sweet looking girl not attached or dating?? i wonder.lots of qns goin thru ma mind.

here's somethin abt her.....

she has the prettiest smile that will warm anyone's hard. a strong determination. a sweet looking face of a girl next door. guess what? she's in my girls team! hahaha...
(no price for guessing who she is)

anyways... lets hope something good will come out of it.

*peace out...*

tears and chilli

2005-10-21T17:42:00.000+08:00

yesterday's trg was good.
can't say much more.

went to AL-AZHAR to have dinner.

tried out NASI GORENG AL-AZHAR, seems to me that that was one of their specialities. indeed! it looks all delicious and mouth watering when it came, chilli prawns by the side, fish crackers on above the rice. the fried rice, fried to near perfection, accompanied by a healthy dose of vegs and chicken meat. everything complimenting one another.(sounds like some ad for the dish eh? ) but looks can be decieving. i had to peel my own prawns.talking abt that, we talked abt guys who peel prawns for their girls and stuff. had got really interesting. by the way, i'm one of those guys that are willing to peel prawns for their girls. so it took me quite a feat and sometime to peel everythin b4 settling down to eat. one bite into the fried rice with the crackers, sent my tastebuds into cloud 9. came to the prawns, it was HELL!!!! it was so so so spicy, practically killed all my cells in my mouth. but i'm jus those people that can't really eat much chilli but jus love eating it.(weird eh?)

anyways, the chilli prawns brought me to tears eventually. i was like perspiring all over and tearing. in those tears , there are some tears that are for real, real tears not because of the food, but because i was thinkin of my mom's situation, my mom's like all sucessful,smooth sailing career. now bounded by a walking frame. it brought me to tears thinkin of that. hope she'll get better very soon. SHULING, JESSICA and LINDA being sweeties offered their drinks to "extinguish" the "flames" burning on my tongue. LINDA later went to buy a giant slurpee, i had never been so happy to see a slurpee!!! immediately slurped up a giant mouthful of iced syrup. it seems like heaven to me at that time.(thanks LINDA!!)

later gorged on QIJIA's food, followed by some pisang prata. then finished up half of the slurpee.(sry linda) think i'm gonna have a real hard time crapping tmr. it'll be like crapping fire!!! hahaa...... till then.

**anyways this is 1 of the 3 posts i jus posted. scroll down for more.)

broken. fall.

2005-10-21T17:21:00.000+08:00

sometimes i really hope there's someone there for me to fall on when i break down.
but it seems that, i'm on my own. falling into and eternal darkness.whom can i turn to when i'm down? there used to be someone.

anyways,
the girls team are doing good.
can see them improving. happy for all of them.
juniors keep up the good work. seniors work harder!
i wonder frm time to time, whether their performance is due to the person training them, or coxing them. because it seems that they perform better with coach or wilson arnd. with me? sometimes only. why? puzzles me too.am i really doing such a lousy job? i need someone to tell me.

u need pple to scold you girls before u girls can perform? i tried my best. it doesn't seem to work in anyway. i'm hopeless.

half of me.

2005-10-21T17:15:00.000+08:00

been really busy these few weeks.

mom's been in hospital for arnd 3 weeks. day after day w/o fail, i would turn up beside her bed. feeding her. helping her arnd. accompanying her. i can spend the whole day jus sitting there doin nothin but jus lookin after her. maybe its because when my mom's pregnant for 9 months, the pain and suffering she went thru, its the least i could do. but the most furious thing is that if i missed out 1 day, w/o visiting my mom, my dad will start irritating me by saying that, " do u know your mom's still on hospital?", makes it as if i have always stayed at home doin my stuff. irritates the shit outta me. i can even sacrifice a lil time of training, arrive a lil late, spend more time with my mom. then i'll get all the warnings once again, punishments. everything's falling on me. dug out my savings to support my own transportation fees. rushin down to GLENEAGLES, and then rushin down to kallang or skool, even if its like spending half an hr beside her, i didn't complain. scoldings and punishments, guilt of always arrving late, everything's on ma shoulder.
yet on the other hand, my older sis. seems like she couldn't be bothered much. carried on her usual schedule, outings. skool. fun.

i had to cancel lots of meet-ups, parties. hospital,training. these are the things that kept me drained out.

then my mom's discharged.a few days b4 that, it seems like my sis can't really bother much abt that. she said she had a test, but it doesn't seem so to me. her usual msn-msging lasted till late night, w/o seeing her studying or such. then came the day when she is gonna be discharged. where's my sister when i woke up like 7 am in the morning? sleeping like a log at home, reason: skool. can't take a lil time off? arrive a lil late for class? doesn't seem so.

(up till this point, i'm not saying that i'm like some very filial son, or that my sis is not. i'm jus relating what actually happened. its up to u to judge)

reached there at arnd 9. and guess what? the doc said he'll reach at 10. guess what time he decided to send my mom to the clinic? 1 pm. once again irritated the crap outta me. i was like complaining over and over again. blardy doc.

now my mom's at home. more work. 1 lesser person to do housework. more "burden" onm me. dad's a lil busy with work and with mom. couldn't blame. sis? busy with ? lets not talk abt her. granny's not home for the time being. granny's sister jus passed away.(dun really know whats the proper way to address her) all the housework? me. i didn't really do ALL of them, if i did, i'll probably die halfway.

now that everyone's back at home. granny does the cookin, dad does the earning of money, sis's does the early "morning therepy", and disappeared into thin air after that, all that's left is done by me.

had to juggle goin down for trg at kallang and housework. so that explains why i'm always late for trg.(my apologies to ashley and linda) tried to look cheerful and vibrant on the outside, but underneath it, i'm half dead. dead beat.

yesterday's a good example. had to rush a lil more housework. rushed down for trg. tried my best to arrive b4 trg start, and i did. i was a step to heaven at that point. exhausted, physically and mentally drained.

honestly i have to admit that i couldn't perform as well today. became tired very very easily. bicep curls, 10-10. i couldn't really sustain as long as usual. i'm gonna break soon.

guess what i've on later?

a whole day of lookin after my mom. turned down ODEL's invitaion for an outing.(sry babe)

gonna be a long day tmr.

(not complaining here. but i'm really getting tired, very tired.)

** gonna doze off soon**

absence

2005-10-12T17:04:00.000+08:00

will not be blogging for sometime till like probably end of this week?

sry guys, been busy lately.

will update asap ya.

**i jus have to learn to let go**

**peace out.....**

Help wanted

2005-10-08T04:48:00.000+08:00

i jus got this awesome new song.

but the problem is... i don't know the title.

can u guys out there gimme a hand? help me find out the title and artiste?

thanks alot.

blardy suicide bombers

2005-10-07T16:20:00.000+08:00

JEl.... hope u're fine and stuff.

heard abt the bombin in bali. was worried abt u and the other students there.

curse those bombers. if they love exploding things or themselves up... go do it in their home. bomb up those they love(or do they have pple they love?).

so so so pissed of by those friggin terrorist. don't they have more construtive things to do than bombing up stuff?? go blast their ass off then.
i would love to see them sittin on a pile of C4s.

if by any chance u terrorist out there read this.

i curse u to eternal damnation. F*&k u all.

**pardon my language. things are kinda rough for me. trival stuff like these, i dun give a damn anymore.**

sedated.

2005-10-07T16:13:00.000+08:00

issit sorrow, sadness or anger?

can't sleep these few days.

resorted to drinking lots of honey and milk to sedate myself.

it works... to a certain extent. as u can see drinkin so much fluids before slp... i have to wake up in da middle of the night, moving in absolute darkness to the washroom.

why are all these things happenin to me now? isn't my life painful enuf?

jus hope what coach says is true. tough time don't last, tough man do. i'll keep it in mind.

2005-10-06T18:32:00.000+08:00

jus finish watching MY SASSY GIRL.

perfect movie to watch with ur beloved other half. but it seems to me that it ain't a good time to talk abt such friggin stuff.

can't really slp.

why?

u tell me.

say nothin at all

2005-10-06T15:23:00.000+08:00

i understand

i know

you need not say anythin more

get out..

get lost..

get away from everything.

does life really sucks w/o love?

or issit the person that make ur life living hell?

pain/suffering, do u have to go through all these jus to know that someone cares?

to you: i may not show my affection in the way u expect, neither will i do the things that will express my love for u. don't you worry, my love for you will never die. you have sacrificed much for me, these are all i can repay you.

to you: all the best.nothing else. you have everythin u need. u dun need anythin more frm me. all i can give u is a reluctant blessing. take it or leave it.

to you: harsh words, harsh reality. stop living in a life of fun and luxury. trust me. life ain't that all.

to you and you and you: don not take pple for granted. dun miss them when they are gone. do not weep. its ur fault. ur friggin fault, blame no one but urself.

to YOU: pls do ur friggin job well. there are pple out in this world that needs some of that friggin arrows of urs. pls shoot it well. damn you.

to you: if u think that i'm pissed. i am. if u think i'm vulgar i am. do u think that i'm in a bad mood, i am. but what makes u think i care abt what u think abt me?

life's never fair. it has never been for me.
for that friggin period of time, i thought that my life was actually gonna turn out alllllright. but no, instead it took a fall and plunged itself into eternal damnation. you don't friggin believe what i said. fine. wait till u get into the same situation as me. dun come beggin me for advice. get lost. u think u deserve any?
dun feel offended by what u are reading right now. dun.

why bother?

why care?

why share it with ur frenes?

issit very entertaining?

or are u laughing at a fool, trying so hard to stand up after a fall.

limit.

everyone has it.

dun cross mine. anyone... you have been warned.

even the most harmless creatures will defend and fight back when provoked.

plucking on my emotional strings. playing at tune, soothing to ur ears. at the expense of others.

you may think all these i wrote is abt you.

think again.

there are other you/s in my life.

you might jus be the one mentioned.

2005-10-06T14:59:00.000+08:00

MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE

I"M NOT OKAY(i promise)

Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say
I never want to let you down or have you go
It's better off this way
For all the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
Remember when you broke your foot
From jumping out the second floor

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems
(I'm not okay)
I've told you time and time again
You sing the words but don't know what it means
To be a joke and look
Another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time
Take a good hard look

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you'd read me like a book
But the pages are all torn and frayed

I'm okay
I'm okay
I'm okay, now
(I'm okay, now)

But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay
(Trust me)

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-fucking-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
(Okay)

Love is like a drug.

2005-10-01T14:59:00.002+08:00

yesterday was a dramatic day, for me and for ma bruda rauf.
lets not get too much details in that ya.... he might not like it....

but it was all abt love. yesterday's a day of love.
my mom's in the hospital. visiting her.... signs of love.
rauf's thing.. also abt love.
anyways felt good after the whole drama, real good. as if i've done a million good deeds.

but i dun really see that kind of love surround me. what? do i have some kind of anti-love shield?

but anyways can't argue over that. maybe its retribution on my part.
stuff that i have done b4, may not be forgiven by that particular person. so maybe someone's punishing me?

i've repent, i will not let such things happen again. i've hurt u badly, i've seen u cry, i've seen u down, but u never knew that deep down, it pains my heart to see u so sad and hurt. you never know, i never let you know. i was selfish, i was dumb. i'm everything a guy shouldn't be. what else you want me to say? i'll suffer a million slaps, stabs.... or wateva.

another weird thing happened to me.

ok when we WERE together. i've got no idea but when XX has trouble or something had happened, i usually feel something, can't explain the feeling, but somehow i knew that somethin have happened to her.

i felt it yesterday.

i immediately msged her. but as usual she doesn't reply. worries me. i know i'm not the right person to be worrying but, i can't help it. so the whole night old memories flooded my brain banks. scenes of yester year, when she needed someone, i am there. but now.... things have changed, but not all things. feelings on my part, haven changed. what abt XX? doesn't seem the same.... i dun blame her. i deserve it.

anyways, if XX u're reading this, (i've got no idea how.) pls give me a msg or something. let me know u're fine and stuff, dun leave me hanging by the thread.

stay tuned

2005-09-23T07:59:00.000+08:00

stay tuned to my blog as i have an absolute gorgeous song comin up...

it has never been played on local radio stations...

trust me... i know u guys will love it

*i shall try to get the song up asap*

painful,red hot tan.

2005-09-19T10:52:00.000+08:00

sat's training was hot....

the weather that is....

anyways.... first trainin after exams(lets not talk abt exams..... got totally owned by the papers.)

trained with the girls as usual. and for those who still dunno.... i'm officially the coxswain of the girls team in NPDB!!!

the run was ok... except for a few "sick" cases while running.

rowing wasn't that good, expect better from them. for once i like raised my voice to like shout at them. "scolded" them..... but it doesn't seem like scolding to them.sad. i know i can't scold pple, it has been this way since dunno when, can't scold, can sprout vulgarities.sound stupid eh?

try to be a better cox. anyways this is to the girls team.(if anyone frm the girls team read this)
BUCK UP!!!! i'm gonna start trainin u girls as hard as i can!!! i'll do my best and u girls do ur part. lets work hard together.

today's trainin was slightly better, but still not up to standard. but we will still work hard eh?
me on my part have to work hard to TRY to give them a tongue lashing.(seems impossible for me.) will always strive to be a better cox.

sweet, tiring, sleepy.

2005-09-19T10:42:00.000+08:00

haven blogged for a few days.

these is what happened in those days of absence.

mom hurt her back, kinda in a bad shape.
wanted to go consult some doc at.... EUNOS!!!! thats like so so so so uber far away from my house. had to get a number for my mother early, as there are lots of pple who consult that doc. so i had to get up at..... 6.15am !!!! almost didn't felt like goin, but for my mom's sake.... what to do? then things became worst.... it started pouring.... ARGHhhhhh.... brave thru the storm and i finally arrived at YEW TEE mrt station after like 10 mins braving the rain and wind with an umbrella. train ride took like what seem ages to me. still have to take a cab in to UBI AVE.... waited at the roadside for taxi, then a bus came by and splashed all the water onto my feet.... ARRgghhhh!!! wat could be worse???? finally got on the taxi. FINALLLYYY... reached the almighty clinic... and what do u know??? there's like a long snake of pple waiting outside the "supposed"-to-open-at-8.30-yet-dunno-what-time-then-open clinic, there's like so many pple in frnt of me. got number 12. i thought to myself ...."shouldn't take too long anyways... its like 11 pple in frnt of me only... how long issit gonna take?" called my mom, told her that the doc takes like an hr to consult 3-4 patients. i thought my mom's kidding. so i sat on one of the chairs outside of the clinic, listening to my IPOD MINI all ALONE!! i waited .... and waited... and waited. dozed off.... when i woke up.... looked at my watch... OMG ... 1 hr went past... quickly got on my foot to see whats the number... and guess what? SERVING: 03

ARGHHHhhhhh!!!!!!!

now i believed my mom..... then i did the mathematics..

11/3= 3.67

am i gonna wait for 3 hrs plus? make a guess.....

YES!!!

omg.... i waited like what seem aeons to me now. i think cobwebs started forming on me.
finally saw my mom arriving at arnd 11.15. SERVING: 11
finaly my mom's next.... then had to wait like arnd 20-30 mins again for the consultation.... i was so so so tired,sleepy and stonified by then.

but at that place i had a very very heartwarming feeling. firstly it might be because the place reminds me of my old house, the neighbourhood and stuff.
then the other thing is the love all arnd. i see grannies chatting with their neighbours, with the vendors everyone seem so friendly. u can see grandparents bringin their grandchildren for a walk. in the clinic i can see a very old malay couple, very loving,the husband has injured his leg, his wife is like so ever-ready to help him arnd, always by his side, so so loving indeed. can see all the smiles arnd, there's also this lady accompany her mother to the doctor. sitting by her. then there are also grand children wating for their grandparents in the clinic. all i can say is LOVE IS ALL AROUND.... except around me that is.it jus warms the heart, in the cold rainy day.

and there's also something there.... rats!!!
i was sitting outside the clinic near the void deck, then suddenly i saw this furry creature come out from some dark corner of a crate and it ran towards me!!!! i quickyl lifted my legs up as it ran pass beside my chair into the drain behind me. and fyi... it wasn't a small rat, it was kinda huge!!! totally groooosssssss..

White flag.

2005-09-14T16:00:00.000+08:00

got totally owned by the AMD paper today. the paper looks easy on the outside but when u actually get down to do it.... i was at a blank.looked at the paper as if it was some kinda specimen, all look no touch. i stoned there for half a min or so. thought to myself, " should i like jus put my head down and sleep? or die tryin?" i chose the latter.

struggled like crazy for the paper. most of us predicted that we'll fail the module. cos the paper's hard, the teacher's super shrewed, not super, totally ridiculously shrewed and picky. our luck to have such a teacher.

tmr's ASAS paper.the workin part is like a whole page full of lines and numbers. some how reminds me of a spider web. started of a chain of thoughts, spiderman was the first film i watched with ma girl. will never forget it.

anyways... gotta go now. going skool like uber early tmr to MUG MUG MUG....

**peace out**

Murder. Guilty as charged.

2005-09-14T14:59:00.000+08:00

Yesterday started off OKAY.....

off to skool to mug for the AMD paper today. totally crap. like outta 10 qns, i could answer probably 3? felt totally demoralised.lucky i had ELF to help me. And during our free time(like almost every sec we were talkin crap.) ELF did a MTV on an old jap pop song, White Love by SPEED. totally hilarious... laughed my pants off. we even recorded it. Probably gonna air it like after exams.(scared that he'll not teach me more stuff after i air his embarrasing MTV.)
so stay tuned to like this fri.... we'll have an exclusive MTV aired on my blog!!!! guys u gotta catch this.

met YEN BING, ADELINE and SHYAM at the library. they were also muggin.

left arnd 5++. MAY and EVAN wanted to play some pool at pool factor after skool, when they're like still in town! pissed AJAX off. had an hr of CS after that. went home.

after i alighted.was walkin home, grooving to ma IPOD MINI, was kinda in a rush to get home, mom's mad. then something happened. i heard a loud crunching sound. i looked back and realised i had, stepped on a snail!!!! at that moment i felt so so so friggin bad. sad.depressed. i had just killed a living thing!!! like in my own hands!!! (not practically though.)

quickly rushed home. on the way, i kept praying for the snail.dun ask me why. i jus felt so so bad. it's like i've committed something real bad. i'm guilty as charged.

went to the prayer room and prayed for the snail. felt a lil better after that.(i know it might sound childish)

2005-09-09T16:00:00.000+08:00

hey guess what??? i'm a CHICKEN SUPREME!!!

You are a Chicken Supreme Pizza!

Be it spicy, roasted or ham, you love them all! Just like your attitude towards friends, you accept and love your friends for who they are. You are also faithful to your family and friends; someone who can be trusted and depended on. One bite into this pizza and you'll love it for life!

ha... u guys can go http://www.pizzahut.com.sg/html/funzone/ptest_pizza.asp

to see what kind of pizza u are!

STUCK IN REVERSE

2005-09-09T06:48:00.000+08:00

i more like stuck in the past...

past memories, past love that will never come back.

pain. sacrifices i made. choices that i regretted making.

anyways.... finally got this song. its a very nice , slow ,melodious song. it was on the hit tv show The O.C. i think the fans will remember it very clearly.

Coldplay- Fix you

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
when you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

living in the past.

2005-09-07T06:33:00.000+08:00

been some time since i last updated my blog.
and this update will probably last till like after the exams.

exams fever hits again.
and everyone's down with it.why?? why are there exams?? sucks big time.

last few weeks have been a little havock, a little tiring , a little fun, a lil of everything.

been thru emotional turmoil too.... feels like rubbing salt on your wounds.(old wounds that is....)

one thing i remembered very clearly was on teacher's day. skipped class that day to visit my *or rather our* favourite teacher MISS YEO LI LI of FMSS. mwhahahaha.... sounds kinda rude to put her full name here, it also serves as a warning to those naughty kids out there, if u're making life difficult for our teacher here, expect a hell lot more frm us!!!! hahahha.... sounds so gangsta...

abt miss yeo, she's like one of the few surviving teacher's there, together with our lovely MISS JANE NGOH, who recently became MRS CHNG!!! (congrats there..... where's our invitation to the wedding dinner???) anyways... these are the only two teachers that i went back specially to visit. the other teacher's have all either left or retired. now the sch is full of new , probably unexperienced teachers, whom faces i have never seen before.

we met up at arnd 4 at town.( we in this case refer to our 2c '01 fmss gang here, with the usual suspects, ME! , RAUF,CALEB,BEN,ABBAS,CHARLES,KIM YEW,HWAD. the girls were not able to make it, so its like some guys day out or something.

we went to our usual hangout again. Plaza Singapura. hit BK for some munch on. then CHARLES suggested on goin SWENSENS for some ice cream. WHam...... we crashed SWENSENS , ordering a table full of sundaes and ice creams. i ordered a BANANA SPLIT for myself.

here are some pics of our feast.....

anyways, charles and i had second servings. i had a TOPLESS 5 . we were kinda like wishing that they will serve it topless.... *mwhahhaa... u should know what we mean......* and viola!! it was served topless! without any toppings that is.... what were u thinking?? served by topless waitress???

went to bash some buttons at the arcade.

we were on our way home after that. had a great time. more outings after the exams eh?

Better together

2005-08-20T17:06:00.000+08:00

jus updated a very very catchy-and feel-good song.
hope you guys like it.

BETTER TOGETHER by

JACK JOHNSON

There is no combination of words

I could put on the back of a postcard

And no song that I could sing,but I can try for your heart

Our dreams, and they are made out of real things

Like a shoebox of photographs with sepia tone loving

Love is the answer

At least for most of the questions in my heart

Why are we here and where do we go

And how come it's so hard

It's not always easy and sometimes life can be deceiving

I'll tell you one thingIt's always better when we're together

Mmm, it's always better when we're together

Yeah, we'll look at the stars when we're together

Well, it's always better when we're together

Yeah, it's always better when we're together

And all of these moments just might find a way into my dreams tonight

But I know that they'll be gone when the morning light sings

Or brings new things for tomorrow night you see

That they'll be gone too, too many things I have to do

But if all of these dreams might find their way into my day to day scene

I'd be under the impression I was somewhere in between

With only two, just me and you, not so many things we got to do

Or places we got to be, we'll sit beneath the mango tree now

Yeah, it's always better when we're together

Mmm, we're somewhere in between together

Well, it's always better when we're together

Yeah, it's always better when we're together (mmm)

I believe in memories, they look so, so pretty when I sleep

And when I wake up, you look so pretty sleeping next to me

But there is not enough time

And there is no, no song I could sing

And there is no combination of words I could say

But I will still tell you one thing

We're better together

this song was introduced by my frene MARK, whom i greatly thank for letting me fall in love with this song.

anyways.... talking abt thurs training.

its been quite some time since we have trained till i felt so so so SHIOK.

normal warm up push ups of 100, with the predicted 40++ extras to do. after which the juniors were punished , including us seniors of course. another 50.

seems easy? think twice, each count we have to spell the number out, example, O, N, E, 1..... T, W, O, 2..... and it goes on....

when i heard this, i felt surprised. OLIVER giving such tough warm up. OOouuuccchhh! anyways to spare you of all the calculating and stuff. every 10 counts , we have to do 49 push ups. 49 x 5 = 245, 245 + 150= 395. we did a total of approx 395 push ups for warm up!

next came running, haven been training much running. the run was kinda harsh at the starting, with the-kind-of-sprinting-speed-yet-seems-so-easy-for-all speed you know? probably its because of me, not running for a very long time. after the 3 or 4 rounds of sprinting arnd the track, which practically took most of my breath away. next came the uber-huge-number of rounds we have to run.... guess how many.....

18!

wooooo hoooo..... shiok eh?

i thought OLIVER was kidding but it doesn't seem so. changed my mindset once again to finish the 18 rounds no matter what. and the pace seems easier as time goes by, manage to catch up. then finally finishing the 18 rounds.

18 + 3 = 21. 21 x 400 = 8.4km

8.4 km and 395 push ups, plus the normal 60++ jumping jacks. today's warm up sure is good. good for health. i felt as light as a feather after all the running. must be all the fats and water i lost.

came the pool rowing and normal stuff. ended training with a meal at KAP.

tiring but a fruitful training afterall. as i told TREDDY, its been sometime since i trained till i feel so shiok.

today started off as usual.

the dragging of feet of the bed, the half opened eyes.

all went well till.....

i continued doing my ED/CADM project. super-uber-ridiculous-insane project i've ever done. all the parts and dimension. i spent a total of 13 hrs in skool today, in which i spent 8 hrs on the project itself. sitting in front of the computer screen pulling out my every strand of hair. its so fustrating because, if one of the parts is modified, the whole result might be different and the computer will jus make things worse by "corrupting" the files, making it useless. MEI YAN, LIANG and i were practically on the verge of breakdown at arnd 8+pm. till then we have already spent 7 hrs ++ on the project, changing this and that, going back, round and round.

we had to cool YAN down most of the time as she was the one that becomes bonkers the easiest. yelling and throwing tantrums,(mwhahaha... sound like a small kid eh? hope yan is not reading this). you might even thought that you have stepped into the wrong place when u see us, three.... or more specific two people going absolutely nuts. LIANG was the brainest among us, having more knowledge on CADM than both of us, we often seek help from him. thanks bro!

after the fustrating project which we yet to finish, as the technician had to close the lab, we have to continue this madness on monday.

went KAP to eat again.

so so so tired that i almost fell asleep as soon as i got a seat.

*gotta slp now, trainin's tmr.*

** peace out... **

updates

2005-08-17T16:10:00.000+08:00

gonna update a new song soon....

stay tuned....

**peace out..............**

life's full of UPs and DOWNs

2005-08-17T14:52:00.000+08:00

training today was kinda happening.

firstly, during training, BEN sprained his ankle, then before i know i see JAS having some problems breathing. i'm like the medic over there.
then when i was getting water, saw one of the junior girl, having gastric. aiyo....
disastrous.

lucky i was ok....

training was ok today... gym was good
must train running!

after training very little pple went to eat . only a handful of us. KAP suddenly became so quiet.

** gtg do some stuff...... **
** peace out......**