Like me.Love me.Hate me.

my world is crashing down on me, i feel so suffocated, so helpless, so in pain, yet i cant do anything to stop it.
where is my pillar of support when i need it the most? i cant carry the weight of the world on my back.

save me.

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- back -

hey guys!!
i'm back... yeah... back to the blogging world.... these few weeks of absence is due to lots of factors... firstly i have training camp... then my laptop came up all weird and last but not least... work.

training camp....
it ended arnd the same time last week for training camp.the camp itself was good i thought. train hard when we have to... play hard when its time... its good. first nite... guys went for a nite jog... not much of a jog... turn out to be quite hell-ish i say... my legs were crying for help when the "jog" ended. then Say Meng said somethin that probably scared the shits out of lots of guys." this is just the beginning.... there's more tmr"... woohooo... talked crap till we fell asleep.

woke up early next day.... it was actually later than most of the trg camp we had previously. a lil warm up before HELL. Owen's training. shan't disclose more abt it... will remind me of the hellish trg... yeeeouccch.

that trg left us half of what we are... for the next 3 days. legs ached like crazy... counterpain(some kind of muscle ache relief creme) before sleep... same as ever... talked crap(*lets talk abt breast shall we??hahaha...*) till we slept.

Sat...
a lil fun and game from coach before heading to kallang for our usual sea rowing....
one Tp girl caught my eye!!damn..... she look fineeeee!! hopefully theres no Tp DB girls reading this.

anyways.... had some R&R... and BBQ!!! ... the food is absolutely fab-u-lous!!!
yeah... and we got 'killed' by Shun De's mom's chilli padi.

we slept quickly that night.... maybe its bcos of all the food we ate.

Sunday...
was almost same as sat... sea rowing... and i have to say... the girls are getting better!!! so proud of u girls.
then before we know.... 4 days 3 nights have passed... time to break camp... headed to KFC for some feast... woohoo... ate like we never ate for months. they have this scratch and win thingy going on... and no doubt we all got the same prize... free 1 regular whipped potato... ZZzz.

next up...
my lappie was acting all weird and stuff on the day of book in for trg camp. some dunno what cooler unit got problem... so i sent for servicing. and guess what? the person called me one day during work and told me..." erm... the laptop u sent in is okay.. there's no prob...." so there's no problem with my laptop.. hmmm maybe my eyesight??? i saw clearly my laptop telling me abt some problem abt the cooler unit.... ahhhhh forget it... as long as my laptop is back with me... i'm happy.

i was also busy with work.... now in some kind of financial problem at home, so need the money.went back to acting again...guess who i worked with?

[can guess which pretty babe is this?]

[can make out who isst?]

to make things easier... i took a photo with her!! and him of course...

[HE IS DA MAN!!!!! Adrian Pang!!]

[none other than the pretty and gorgeous Fiona]

i also include other pictures...

[Mediacorp on the outside]

to those who wonder what it looks like inside...

[Mediacorp on the inside]

during the filming....

[camera crew]

[Mr Director.. lookin into the screen]

alrights.. there is how a set looks like.

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- caught in the middle -

yesterday started off like the same old monday.... i was reminded by Vivi that Li nan is arriving at S'pore.Invited by Vivi to welcome Li nan... i was plannin to go join them after gyming in skool.

was kinda late when i left skool, totally forgot abt the time when i was gyming.
took at bus to dover and was abt to go through the pay gate when i recieved a msg from Janise that birthday girl Yen was kinda sad and wanted Jan to celebrate with her. Jan decided to plan a surprise for her to cheer her up, so she quickly contacted the usual buddies, Jas,Ben,Chris,Jel and me. Jas had to cancel her dinner, Ben had to rush down from his work, me.. i was caught in between the two sides, Li nan or Yen? hmmmmmmm.... quickly made up the decision to go Yen's as i did not know what happened to her. so my deepest apologies to Li Nan...i really wanted to go pick you up you know?

anyways waited at dover mrt station for Jan to pick me up in a cab and headed towards Holland V. went to WalaWala. Yen was so so surprised to see me when i was there... Jas came in shortly after, followed by Ben. haha... the only words she can say to us? " what are you doing here?".... after we cancelled or rush down from all places this is all she can say to us??? haha... jus jokin babe.. feels good to bring a smile to Yen's face when she saw all of us.

[ me and the ever sassy ever pretty Janise.(dont worry you're not fat!!)]

[ me and the emo birthday girl yen]

later Yen's HONEY... Yixian wanted to give her another surprise by poppin up. so we pakat with him and when he appeared, Yen was moved to tears... but anyways we had a great time there... ate lots of chicken wings and drumsticks....and a marinated garlic chicken pizza... which turned out to taste exactly like "char siew" pizza to me.

[ heap of bones after piggin out... damn.. all those fats i've to lose]

it was also my first time to WalaWala, the place there is nice... gotta go there more often to chill out... anyone? girls?

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- Bliss -

I've got a new hp!!!! woooohoooo!!!!
Finally... after so long i can give me trusty Nokia 6510 a rest..... my ol'faithful
I've got a Nokia 6280!!! a model i've been eyeing on for quite a few mths.... and my wish is finally fulfilled.... and this hp doesn't come easily... i earned for it ok?

other than changin my hp, i've changed my plan too!!! so all u guys out there give me a call anytime ya? provided i'm free that is... haha...
oh btw i've a new number and i'll msg those in my contact list, and if i miss anyone of u guys out... pls drop me an email,friendster msg, or msn msg to tell me... i'll gladly give u my new hp no.
one more thing!!! those with a 3G hp, that can video call me....... do it!!!! hahaha... so fun!!

alright.... think i'm too happy for words now... ciaos

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- girl -

jus did a quiz and found out that my type of ideal girl is.....

- change -

same starting of the day as all wed, bring mom for accupuncture early in the morning... ZZzz
then the fun start arnd 4.30pm... agreed to go shopping with my bros abbas and rauf, levi's at taka having one hell of a sale!!!! sooooo cheap!!!! shop shop shop!! spend like there's no tmr... spent an hour plus there...got myself 2 pairs of jeans... so happy. now ive enough jeans.... time for tops... *hint hint*
went PS for a lil dinner at LONG JOHN SLIVERS, got dad a NALGENE bottle.

the train was sooooo friggin packed when i went home!! sian... i practically have to stick my face on the door!! thats how packed it was... and finally when there's seat.... i realised the train have to terminate at Yishun.... ZzZz... seems like someone's playing a prank on me eh?

anyways.... dunno what made me recall something HuiHua said to me a few days ago,something abt me being a SNAG(Sensitive New Age Guy). hmmmm... then i recalled why she said that... its because i wanted to choose Appreciating Arts for my IS module... hmmmm am i becoming more snag??? hmmmm hope so... haha.... then out of nowhere... i have the sudden urge to go to a library and pick up something to read.... READ!!! yeah.. u heard me... since when was the last time i WANTED to read a book? hmmmm....must be the year of the dinosaurs or something.... hmmm somethings weird... why am i becoming liddat??? first appreciating art...then now novels?? woah.... jia lat... must be going through another phrase of change.... actually the only change is that ive became more "refined".... art and novels.... hmmmm... and i kinda lose the interest in games... now the only thing i can think of doing during free time... novels + music = ultimate enjoyment... or chilling out with my friends... suddenly all these things are the only things occupying my mind... its not that it has never surfaced in my mind.. but now.. it seems more obvious to me.... hmmmm.. but one thing never change.... i'm still game for DOTA!!! hahaha... but not that much interest as before ..

am i really becoming more like a snag? issit good or bad? someone tell me pls?

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- memories -

a few days ago we had our NPDB grad dinner at oliver's place (as usual). seems like every year, the dinner is the same. food was not bad. but once it came to the games... (as usual) its kinda boring *my apologies to the organising comm, but its really kinda boring* jus my point of view. but the most enjoyable part is still the "raping" and pushing of each other into the pool(as usual again)... then AS USUAL... the guards will come and spoil the fun.... damn... why do this happen everytime? anyways... this year the graduating batch got a very nice souvenir, i might say... its a very original idea. its a small singlet with their name and a 'long' (dragon) printed in the middle, and framed up in a wooden/cardboard frame. very nice indeed.hopefully next yr, my graduating souvenir will be as nice, or even nicer!!!*hint hint*

i was surprised that the graduating girls passed me a souvenir too!! a dvd actually, contents highly confidential. but it was really nice of them. i would like to thank them once again for the dvd and the wonderful memories they have left for me. THANK YOU!!!!! will cherish the dvd like it was gold or something. i would also like to wish u guys and ladies of the graduating batch all the best in the future, for the guys, all the best in NS, for the ladies, hope that everything goes well for you.

**oh... btw, whenever i update my blog, i'll put [UB] in my msn nick.**

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- epidemic -

today started off early, needed go SDBA for some event to earn some "kaa-ching", its to teach some scouts, ended up with the mooooost naughtiest bunch of all. look like a nice bunch of kids at first but end up.... a bunch of lil devils. they even used vulgarities that i dun use!!!(not that i use any)totally prosposterous!! gave me such a headache to teach them.... but they are not all bad... can train my "endurance" with naughty kids. i dun even need to raise my voice with them!! (not that i will raise my voice to anyone), but its their usage of vulgarites that scare me the most!!! where da hell did they learn it from? i know the answer is very obvious (everywhere!!!) but, learning it? at such a young age? btw they are at most primary 4 kids only....wonder how the parents teach their kids nowadays. i will never allow my kids to use any vulgarities in the future.

lucky the event lasted for only 2 hrs, went PWD to have breakfast, was so so so hungry then, ordered my usual fix of fried rice . was quite full when i went for trg.
during the run, felt like shit all the time... imagine a huge plate of fried rice flotaing arnd ur stomach with a packet full of ribena... that must suck big time!! but the worst is not the stomach, out of nowhere, suddenly i have an allergy attack, these mosquito-bite rashes came popping on my face, swelling it up sooo sooo soo bad that it shocked ziling(if i'm not wrong).then started spreading to my WHOLE body!!! and i mean the whole body!!! the feeling is soo so unbearable, itchy yet painful at the same time..and i feel like my whole body is gonna burst!!! swelled up so bad. quickly ran back, took at cab and headed directly for home... went to the doc. and here i am.. back at home... on my bed with my lappy, blogging and resisting the urge to scratch myself.AAArrrgghh!!!
*so sorry to all the girls that i'm unable to train with u girls*

*peace out... gotta endure the itch and pain!!!!!! Arrrghh!!!*

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