9Saturday, July 30, 2005

was wondering.... who actually follows my blog or read my post.
i jus wonder. who are you guys that read my blog without fail,
or those who don't bother to read.


same applies to friends. who are those who are always behind me, supporting me, those who always pick me up when i fall, those who don't care about my life and those who refuses to enter my life.i know some.i knew some. i'm going to know some.


who am i to u?






**peace out...**
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9Friday, July 29, 2005

ARRGRggggHHhhhhhh!



i missed out on so much fun yesterday! FAITH had a party but i couldn't make it. heard that it was a blast. man..... so sorry faith, if i ever disappoint you.
i wanted so much to go, so so much , but i was bounded by something, chained to it, thats principles. principles and rules that probably most people won't understand, neither do i. rules set by my parents, principles created by my own consiousness.


anyways after getting back most of the results from my common test, i've decided to work harder. didn't fail anythin so far, all border line cases. probab;y to much temptations that led me to such results.


talking abt principles, coarse language,crude remarks. all these can be controlled. think twice before saying out those words. do those words hurt people if i said it? do i really have to use the word? is that the only word that can be used ti describe ur feelings? NO. so why don't u do yourself and everyone a favour say less of those vulgarities. subsitutes perhaps?? if persuation doesn't help, i think love will do the job. you won't go around the girl/guy you have been chasing for a long time, and a slip of the tongue, one vulgarity jus came out unknowingly, your dream girl/guy may jus be so turned off.one less vulgarity a lil bit more of a wonderful world.




**anyways i'm gonna update my featured song soon(u probably got sick of the same song eh.). still searching for the perfect song to put in.hang in there till the next update. **

**peace out....**
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9Tuesday, July 26, 2005

Last night DARREN invited us to some steamboat at Marina Bay.it was to celebrate his birthday.


even though it was his belated birthday.


HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BRO!


EWAI & MEIYAN, ZHOU, IGGY,MARK and ME were invited. supposed to reach Marina Bay control station at 7.30pm, but guess what? when the last person reached Marina it was already 8.45pm!we(me,iggy,zhou and mark) got him a very nice pencil case and some hp accesories from Flash and Splash. DARREN! i chipped in for the present hor! dun forget abt mine the next time ya!

anyways got there, found a table, and off we go on our rampage through all the food.the splattering of food, fat oily food,high cholestrol,junk food. man.... we had a great time enjoying all the junk food. the company was good.

soon we gotta part ways.

on my way walking home, it was kinda late. suddenly i got a shock, i almost stepped on a snail! i mean like i was kinda tired b4 that, the shock kinda woke me up. then i thought to myself, lucky i didn't step on the snail, it'll be killing a lil life. secs after, i got another shock, from a flying insect, i got no idea why it happened but i got a very very bad feeling, as if it was a premonition,or a sign.two shocks, secs apart? then i quickly said a prayer in my mind, and prayed that nothing wrong is going to happen. then the most shocking thing happened jus now, my mom told me that my dad almost got knocked down my a car! my dad also had a feeling, he did not intend to go work today as he did not really get a good rest last night.it quickly brought me back to last night, all the shocks and stuff. it feels so creepy. is it a coincidence? or is there really something out there that i don't know. no matter what, it still feels creepy.




*anyways shan't think so much...*
**peace out.......**
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9Monday, July 25, 2005

Yesterday had training.didn't had trainin like ages ago. we had the normal training stuff. but yesterday was different. coach put me down to row. and its not normal rowing. its "triangle" ! it like this super long dist arnd the kallang river, forming a triangle. after so long of coxing, he suddenly put me down to row such challenging circuit, not once but twice! BUT i survived thru it! *jus shows that my water endurance is still there!* after everything, the girls training and stuff. i was so so so dead beat. my whole body is aching.(up till now) probably from the lack of exercise during the study week.

at least there was a saving grace for me. we're gonna have a party! dragon boaters are going! but i was thinkin, with the condition i am in now.... how am i gonna club later? am i gonna jus drop down onto the dance floor and sleep? probably.

but it didn't turn out to be that bad. after seeing everyone dressed up so fly,all the babes and hunks. KOK YI, THOMAS,JERIMIAH,HUI GUO*i'm so so surprised to see hui guo going!*FAIZ,WILLIAM,YONG QUAN,SHYAM,GLENN,RONALD,TREDDY,DAJING,JING LUN,HANXIONG*i realised hanxiong is always so lucky with the opposite sex, man....how come things ain't like that for me??*JOANNE, VIVIEN,JASMINE and DENISE*erm i guess this is her name.*, so many babes and hunks....

got the drinks ready, drank and ready to go. i didn't feel the fatigue anymore. and FOR ONCE, i drank a lil too much, my face was piping hot even before i enter the party.*and i mean piping hot.i think i can even fry an egg on my face!*

the place wasn't very much a club, it was transformed from a pub.*i think*
the "crowd" was great.*when i say crowd, u know i am referring to the babes there rite? haha....* continue drinking. got a lil "higher" than before.

here comes the highlight of the night.


okay here i was dancin with JOANNE, then before i knew it, i think her FEMALE friends joined in, dancing in front of me. i mean like," WOW.... its been ages since girls even danced with me. and the first thing i get is not one but two gorgeous looking ladies in front of me? man... i'm lucky.*
but things ain't gonna stop there.
minutes later, two more hot babes joined in!*WoooOOoHOOoo! whats happening? Babes galore?? now instead of two, i got 5 babes infront of me!*including the beautiful JOANNE.*( i thought to myself, am i lucky or what?)** what can 5 babes dancing with me be compared to a dance with her??**
anyways, eventually things got a lil sizzling....( its getting hot in here......ohhh..)

and i met some of my class buddies there too, JAMES, KENNETH,ALEX,GABE,GIAP,BEN. happened to meet YEN BING there too!(my babilicious sista)happy to see them there.

the party wasn't all that great, the DJ wasn't that good compared to the DJ at COCO LATTE.the place was kinda cramped.(i wasn't too bothered abt the plce, but was more affected by the not-so-good DJ.

but it was a fun night, away from all the mental tortue.

**thats all for the party i had last night.... thanks to everyone i have met last night.thanks for the company and drinks.**

**peace out....**
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9Saturday, July 23, 2005

wadya do after you realised that you might be staying back for a semester? wadya do after u realised that u have screwed up all ur hopes of even advancing to semester 2? wadya do after all you can do is to wait and pray? wadya do after all the test?


i tell u what.



PARTY!

2 weeks of pure mental torture.
mugging and mugging(even though the time that i spent muggin wasn't alot.it was still mental torture!)and at the stroke of 5.30pm jus now. everything's ended. my last paper. time to let in all the temptation once again.

training's resuming tmr! yay... been ages since there was training. ah... the sun , the sea. nothing could beat that. and to add to it, there will be a party at CHIJMES tmr, after training. time to let loose and party like there's no tmr. but things could be better if SHE could come.


really looking forward to all the activites tmr. other than the morning housework that i had to do.

been ages since i've club. think i'll take sometime b4 the mood's gonna kick in. and f.y.i without any help from alcohol.(i dun trust alcohol in bringing the mood, sweet drinks will do the trick, they'll seriously make me high, high on sugar, feels like getting drunk)

anyways its getting late.
gotta have plenty of rest for tmr's training.





**peace....**
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9Wednesday, July 20, 2005

the moment i opened my eyes, i was greeted with darkness.
it was raining cats and dogs outside.then a chain of sneezes followed after. by the end of it, i could practically feel my nose falling off.i probably sneeze myself awake.

no test for me today.but i still gotta study.

did not start studying till like arnd 3.
feel kinda guilty.

got down to work.
with occasional sidetracks like watching the tv or slacking away.


anyways gotta go and make up for lost time.




**peace......**
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9Tuesday, July 19, 2005

man... today's paper was such such such an ass.
totally screwed up.
screwed up on friday too.
really hope this screwing up frenzy's gonna end. but it seems that my life's pretty screwed up already.

come to think of it.... there's practically nothing in my life that haven't been screwed up by me.

doing the wrong thing at the wrong time, listening to the wrong things. doing the wrong stuff. falling for the wrong gurl.doing stuff that isn't me.messing up my whole vibe.

whats wrong with me?
issit the "exam stress"?
or issit just me?


you tell me.





**screwed upside down..............**
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9Monday, July 18, 2005

should be studying now, but can't seem to concentrate.
anyways about my new media player, i'll update my featured songs, so be sure to keep visiting my blog, there might also be MTV screenings!

tommorow will be the start of my common test week. 4 days of pure mental torture.

wish me luck on that.


next sat's gonna be a blast. tests over.... time to party baby!
maybe i'll gain enough courage by then to ask.........(keep u in suspense)


gotta go and study now....





**peace.....**
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9Sunday, July 17, 2005

Mwhahahaha.....


Finally after so long.... all the testing and erroring... finally i got the new look up and ready.

I've also included a media player by the side together with the song BAD DAY by Daniel Powter.(Now you can sing to the lyrics from my previous post!.... thoughtful eh?)

anyways... now very happy abt my blog.....

ps: Give me some comments on the new look ya....


**peace......**

Mwhahahaha.....

Finally got a new skin for my blog.... Nice eh?

anyways i also included the song BAD DAY by Daniel Powter in so that u guys can sing to the song.(with the lyrics in my previous post.... thoughtful eh?)

anyways... give me comments on my new look ya?

gotta go back and mug for my exams.....


**peace out....**
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9Friday, July 15, 2005

finally found the lyrics to the wonderful song i was talking abt. anyway i have the music vid to the song too. msg me if you want it.( to those who love ANNA from THE O.C season 1, u gotta catch the vid. )

these few days are kinda routined and dull.

wake up a lil late.... brunch.....

off to skool to study...

Maths eqn.... diagrams.... formulas.....
have to cramp all the lessons in this sem into these two weeks of study break+test week. sounds ridiculous? kind of... when u haven been listenin in class the whole time... u jus have to resort to such ridiculous measures.

but studying haven been all boring. been studying with all by buds like YONG LIANG, AJAX,ZHOU,MARK,IGGY..... making my all boring study to a lively one.


anyway came across this particular song , found it quite nice. after seeing the MTV to it. i've decided to recommend to u guys.u guys should also go catch the MTV to it.

DANIEL POWTER- BAD DAY
(sorry guys... can't seem to find the lyrics to it.will post it as soon as i found it.)
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9Monday, July 11, 2005

realised why i don't talk much abt HER anymore?
gave up the pitiful hope of chasing that wonderful dream. let time take me where ever, when ever. don't think SHE likes what i'm writing too.(probably crap to her)

anyways...this is probably the last post abt her for a long long time or even ever.


You seem like a wonderful dream to chase.You seem like everything.
You seem so real, so unbelievable.You seem so bright with sunshine and youth.
You grew colder.You grew cool-er.
You became a swan.You tried reassuring.
You may not want to get tied down. You may have everything u ever wanted.
You may seem everything's alright. You might have someone in mind.
I might be boring.I might not be as cool.
I might be on different worlds. I may jus be jus someone.
I did not listen. I did not heed.
I got hurt by reality. I got my senses back.
You might not see it, but I can still feel it.
You might not want it, but I can only wish.










** alrights then... this is enough post for one day.**
** nothing much more i can say now.**
**peace......**

few days after the race. came down some stomach ache.
couln't sleep the whole night.
went to see the doc. realised it may be some gastric problems. medicine seem to work a lil. then it still remained. then soon the problem seem to surface, i also have some sort of stomach flu.
Gastric problems + Stomach flu = sleepless nights and pain u can never imagine.

can't eat much, can't sleep much. argh..... living hell.
had a couple of parties during the weekends. decided to give it a miss. (sorry FAITH, can't help u out in ur ticket selling..)

heard from ZHOU that fri's party's rockin. with lots of babes and such. (AAaargh..... missed out a good chance. but who need babes when i got YOU?)

Two months and 3 weeks of hard work, sweat and bitter trainin.
race approaches. it all comes down to two days.

first day of race...
all geared up in our new race tee. first call for Ngee Ann.
coach did not call me. expected. anyways, they loaded up. but it was hard loading up, the constant waves keep crashin, collidin the boats together. BEN unfortunately got one of his fingers caught in between two boats and "WHAM",OMG.... i could see blood everywhere. i quickly called for first aid. his finger was hurt quite seriously. couldn't see much of it, too much blood.
the first aider and a couple of us couldn't stop it. lucky for the NDP rehearsal going on, there were first aid tents there. quickly got him there. there i finally got a good look at his finger. regretted looking at it, gives me the goosebumps. man... looks utterly disgusting.can u imagine the impact? rites... shall tell u his condition. his right middle finger apparently took most of the impact and it practically "chipped" off. flesh and all. i couldn't even make out the shape of his finger. all the blood loss, BEN became giddy and cold. couldn't do much abt his wound at the tent. send him to the HQ. also cannot. gotta get him some professional help. got him to SGH. waited friggin long. alas.... the doc called him. looking at the way the doctor handled his finger made all the hair on me stand on its ends. the wound seems to be a lil cut to him, mangling his finger around, pressing and turning. wiith every press, blood oozes out from his finger nails and such. he said"hmmm... i think ur nail is already gone." then i saw him tuggin on his nail. at that moment i was so utterly shocked, i thought he was gonna yank his nail right out instantly.if he did, i'm probably gonna faint at the spot( taking to consider, i've a phobia of blood). X-ray showed his has cracks on his finger tips. (OOOuuucchhh....)after all the dressin and stuff. i realised we had used up the whole day. all the races had ended. did not go down for any race on that day as a result. ( not blaming BEN for it. glad to help him out.)

second day of race. photo taking. brunch.
off to race. first race, not down.... came second ... third.... by then i had given up all hopes off going down for race.( did not feel disappointed then) sitting there , cheered my team mates with all my voice.
it only came to the end of the whole day that i felt so so so disappointed. HAN XIONG was in the same boat as me. we all did not go down. but i heard that coach did called him, but probably he wasn't arnd. the girls did not very well. (in MY own point of view, i think the girls could have done better. i came up with a reason of my own. the girls did not put in as much effort.no hard feelings girls, but i jus felt that way)


thinking abt all the effort i had put in. and yet i did not even go down. i was kinda furious and disappointed.(even thought of the fact that, why am i still needed in the team?? make up then numbers?)but sorted out my feelings after a hearty dinner buffet with my family. it was my sister's 21st birthday celebration. couldn't miss it for the world.
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