9Saturday, April 30, 2005

heys.... i'm back.... missed me?

anyways GENTING was fun.even though it could get a lil boring at times.the trip was fruitful.all the fun @ the theme park, the gambling @ casino,the great breakfast we have every morning, no wonder i'm broke now.

the trip there was long, very long. some slept, some of us stayed up chatting. the driver's cool, he was like speeding all the way, 125km/h. the speedometer was at its max. it was so so so cool. i lied down staring outside as the world whizz by, listening and groovin to the smooth music. (how i wish she was here by me). soon i fell asleep. woke up a few mins later. decided to chat with QI JIA, JIAN SEN, ODEL and LINDA. we digged out juicy news from all of ourselves. soon i grew kinda tired and decided to turn in.

we reached YONG PENG a few hours later, it was a normal looking food-court-looking place. but this place is different, it sells RAMLY burgers! i didn't realli taste the burgers b4 but i've heard much abt it. decided to buy one to try out. turn out that its not as impressive as it sounds, its just tastier than normal pasar malam burgers.do u know that the MACDONALDS there sell milkshake? cool...... bought one and tried..... didnt realli taste very nice, grew tired of it. reminds me of the song milkshake by kelis..... "my milkshake brings out the boys in the..........its better than yours......"


secs after secs, mins after mins, hrs after hrs..... finally we reached GENTING. OMG... its such a relief....



**kinda late now**
**will continue the story next time...**
**stay tuned**
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9Sunday, April 24, 2005

had a good training today.
all the 1000m sets+the tire pulling+the wonderful warm up jog+the super duper ridiculously fast strokes= uber tired and exhausted but satisfied me.

will be leaving for GENTING tml,haven start packing till later. kinda looking forward to it.

guess this kind simple life of trainin, studies and games suits me well.found out that my ** is attached since last week. good luck to both of em. he better treat her well or else...... .talking abt simple life, maybe the plain jane/girl next door will suit me jus fine. maybe a lil of fame,style and character jus ain't the thing that goes well with me.maybe the plain simple kinda girls jus suit me well.(how i wish she is one plain simple jane ) i didn't jus realised that myself but close friends have pointed it out too. but i'm always hoping that maybe someday, she'll be mine.
she jus returned frm her holiday trip not long, ain't gonna go bore her or irritate her with ma borin conversations for now. (thinks she needs more time with her frenes to catch up)

listened to this particular song that kinda describes what is happenin arnd me,dragonboaters and..... simply my life. hope u guys find the lyrics meaningful too.



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9Saturday, April 23, 2005

nothin much happen the past few days.....
same old boring life....

only yest's training was "hellish", but it felt good after the trainin. at first felt a lil ashamed of myself, being the only idiot wearing race tee when everyone has to wear trainin tee, i think bcos of this it added up to the punishment. *SORRY GUYS*. after training was so so so exhausted. saw her online wanted to chat with her, but she was jus as tired as i am. she turned in. i jus sat on my chair and chill to the music.

reults came out the same day. it came out shitty.i think i have the lowest GPA in my class. realised i have the almost the same grades as MEI YAN but my GPA(grades per average) had a huge huge difference. man..... was kinda disappointed . but later have to face the fact that i was slacking the whole way and i only deserve such marks.

bought some games today. MIDNIGHT CLUB 3 DUB and PREDATOR CONCRETE JUNGLE. spent almost the whole day playing those two.

kinda excited. sun goin GENTING with the dragonboaters.will be gettin ready to have some fun. some party, plain clean fun and maybe some shopping. been ages since i've done all that. will be away till wed night. so guys.......dun msg me till like thurs morning or something ya. *dun miss me ya? lol...*

okok. gtg do some stuff for sports camp.


**gtg do stuff. peace out.....**
**will SHE miss me? guess not**
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9Sunday, April 17, 2005

had a tiring training yest.

pulling tires and stuff. trainin endurance and stuff. and the best of all...... JING YUAN and DERRICK is finally teaching me how to COX(don't really know the spelling, pardon me) the boat, didn't realli do a good job. almost crash the boat*sorry guys, i'll train hard and become a good coxwain*.

decided to turn away all the filming on trainin days. must train hard now. double hard, looking at my team mates, esp KOK YI, JUN WEI gang, with the help of all the "artificial" supplements they have, i've gotta train harder than them. but all talk and no action is obviously no use.

hope i've the strength and the determination to train hard. found out recently that i've kinda distant myself frm the team. kinda left out. hmmm.... dunno if i'm thinkin too much. or maybe its because i didn't go dwn and train with them, therefore becoming more and more distant frm all of them. wonder if they think the same as i do.*if u guys realli felt that, hope u guys can kindly tell me*

she's left on last wed for a trip. will be returning tml. hope she enjoys her trip.*promise i won't talk much abt her*.lets jus hope that the trip with the dragon boaters to GENTING will be as enjoying.



**nothin much left to say, peace out........**

ha.... got a job recently
job=extra in tv shows

even the job dun really pay good. man its kinda worth it. u're kinda paid to slack arnd.and u're even paid to appear on tv and even get the chance to see the celebrities.so far i've seen lots of them, and work with several of them too.letmme recall who i've seen.

first and foremost, the cutest and sweetest one, FIONA XIE,FELICIA CHIN(pardon my spellin, not sure if its rite.),ANN KOK(worked with her),CYNTHIA KOH,the actress in the LUX ad, was frm channel u,forgot her name.MAY PHUA, MELODY(forgot her surname, i think its CHEN).CHRISTOPHER LEE(he smokes! disgusting, totally turned off when i see him smoking, totally not glam or cool,extremely disgusting).HOSSAN LEONG,DARREN LIM.LIN XIANG PING(dunno her english name).ROD MONTERIO.and lots lots more, *can't remember all*.(why didn't i see denise keller? ARgh.... another gorgeous babe i'm wishing to see, who knows i'll have the charm to sweep her off her feet, so she dun need to bother goin on eye for a guy 2. ha... some wishful thinkin, i've alreadi a ger i've been wantin to sweep her feet off,and its alreadi so hard.)

its a total different expreience when filming, some how i didn't know its boring, and tedious.i was on this one particular set whereby i filmed from 7.30am till 9pm! for abt 3-4 screens. took so so so long. but i was paid, so who cares?

the job's kinda flexible too. u can choose to reject the filming if it clashes with ur program.cool rite? ok guys dun be envious of my part time job. ha.........

**nothin much more**
**stay tuned to my next post**
**absence does make the heart fonder,(thats for me, i wonder if she feels it too? guess not)
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9Monday, April 11, 2005

after the Dragonboat AGM on sat. we were all reluctant go home, so we decided to go PS(Plaza Singapura) to have dinner.

its feels nice to see the whole bunch of us going to a place at the same time, feels so united in a way. anyways got to PS food court. man...now comes the hard part. finding seats for all of us. we took arnd 15 mins ++ to settle down. then we went to buy our food.delicious food, great company, what else can u ask for?

they decided to go clubbing after dinner, i was actually thinking of that too! but after a few secs of lag, i look at my clothes and realised that its not realli suitable for clubbing. formal wear. man.... sucks. but who cares? fun fun fun is all i need.

we reached MS(Muhd Sultan) mins later. another obstacle. not all of us are legal.(including me! ha.....) . they wanted to go DiablO(not sure abt the spelling). but the age limit at that time was 20 or 20++ i think and i doubt those underage or me look even like a 18 yr old. me kok yi and owen decided to head towards our regular place,Cocco latte. man... unfortunately Cocco latte's age limit on sat is also arnd the same. disappointed, we decided to try Liquid Room.

finally, the age limit for liquid room is 18, not as bad as 20. we decided to give it a try. letting those underage ones in frnt... blah blah.....alas we got in.soon most of the team decided to come Liquid Room instead of DiablO.

then its time to get the party started!!!!

party! party! even our coach AH Huat also joined in the fun and clubbed with us. man its a rare sight for me to see our coach grooving and dancing.at first the dance floor's kinda dead. only the dragonboaters were dancin. but sooon we got the party started and i see pple start moving their bodies.

the drinks came in later.

drinks, dance, music, company, the perfect combination for a perfect party.i enjoyed myself to the core. the party ended at arnd 3,*i could go for another hr or so*. felt so so lethargic after that.

after some stoning arnd SHAUN and me decided to head home. met KOK LEONG on the bus home. talked abt the party on the bus.went on talking abt car accidents etc.....

reached home arnd 4++am. showered and stuff. tok to ODEL for a while. ha.....seems to me that the party jus now had lots of things happenin.sparks flew, bodies rubbed against each other.(i think i shall leave out the juicy parts for myself.)checked if SHE's online.



**nothin much for u guys.......peace out**
**SHE's always so busy.i feel like sharing her burden/workload but she jus seems distant. anyways the most i can do is to check on her.*kinda bugs or irritate her* .hearing that she's ok makes me relieved**

hey guys i'm back..... missed me?

okok letmme keep u updated ya.

the gl camp i went to was kinda fun.actually i gained quite a lot of things there, weight,knowledge and even some skin.*thick skin i mean*. anyways the first day of campis somewhat boring to me.first was cleaning up of the sports hall,i the hall has thick like a cm thick of dust covering the whole place.took us quite sometime to clean it up.after that was cheers cheers and more cheers. to those who knows me well, they should know that i dun realli do cheers. anyways i was even called out together with 3 other pple to lead a cheer. OMG what can be worse man.made a fool outta myself.

the food there was neither delicious nor disgusting its somewhat EDIBLE. ate arnd an average of 2++ packets of rice per day.thats where the gainin of weight comes by.i've got no idea why the gls love cheers, even b4 eatin, we have to cheer. everywhere we go also cheer, whats next?cheer when i'm crapping?

played a few team bonding games . made alliance with another grp. i soon became either immune or used to the cheers. there's also this tiny but cute and sweet cgl in the camp. ha.... looks kinda like a squirrel.anyways lets not talk abt gers here.

kept using this punjabi/tamil accent throughout the camp, find i kinda hilarious.the word is INCORRIGIBLE.

we had this treasure hunt thingy, held at town. we had to do shameful stuff right at the heart if town! OMG.... i think i have to keepy away frm town for sometime.we are like supposed to do all kind of stuff when one of the guys blew the whistle. the first was we were supposed to lie on the grnd flat when the whistle went off once. man it is so humilating. can u imagine a large grp of pple lyin on their stomach outside MERIDIAN hotel? or even CK TANGS? OMG...... next thing we have to do is the hilarious looking kung fu stance.something like jay chou or what..... argh. the third action is u are supposed to grab anyone near u and start dancin. man.... what could be worse than this? if u think that this is humiliating? ha.... the station masters will make u do all kind of wacky and ridiculous things . so much so that it kinda made me so thick skinned that even posing half naked outside sommerset mrt station didn't embarras me much.(shan't tell u guys more, its for me to know, ha.... will be kinda embarrassing and long for me to say it all)

the next most memorable thing is the walk in the cemetary late at night. man.... the starting feels kinda creepy.we were all supposed to follow some puny light sticks that looks even smaller than an average chopsticks. comes to a part where the dist btwn the two lightsticks is kinda long, i was kinda worried at that pt, after that it was all okay to me.another comm member passed me some lightsticks on the way, being kinda bored i was swinging it, didn't realised that my team mate behind me. he was kinda frightened. ha.... "can u imagine in the pitch black , walking thru the cemetary, then suddenly see a ring of light moving infrnt of u?"ha....... when i heard this frm my frene i find it so hilarious. anyways there was a pt when things were so eerie. i was walking along the road of the cemetary when all of a sudden the sound of the crickets became so loud, i find it quite weird,cos before i reacht that certain pt, it was so loud at all. once i left that pt, the sound died down. it was so creepy, sending cold shivers dwn my spine.

next most interestin thing was the pool games we played at the last day. i was enjoying myself. maybe bcos its the last day, and i'm free after that. but NO. after all the games and stuff we had to paint the team flags, ARRGH...... it took us approx 5++ hrs straight without stoppping to finish the flag. was so so exhausted and drained when they finally released us. it was kinda satisfying on the other hand.thot i would touch any of those class flag thingy once i left sec sch.

anyways... thats all for the camp stuff..... stay tuned for the update on the party yest.*gonna update later, play games now*


*cya later.*
*thinks SHE knows, but the coward me ain't gonna do anythin thinks i'm gonna get rejected anyway*
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9Wednesday, April 06, 2005

hey guys... i think this will be the last post before i go for my camp and upcoming dragonboat AGM.

the camp's tml.... feel kinda reluctant to go. but lets not think abt that. jus go and TRY to enjoy it.i'll be gone till arnd prob sun or next week when i've the time to update.hope the camp will be fun.will be with some of my team mates, so it'll not be that bad afterall.*will be missing her, wonder if she'll miss me?*

anyways had quite a hectic and tiring day today. went to register for job in the morning.after which i went to skool to train.didn't realli train very hard today.prob bcos i didn't have lunch.felt so inferior when i realised the others like ERVIN, KOK YI, RAJEEV etc had train frm 9++am till 3++pm. went to queensway after training. saw HER in sch today. didn't say hello.*wanted so badly to but didn't seem to have the correct words to say it out, in the end i jus tell myself" i think i should jus shuddup and try not to make a fool out of myself"*. anyways didn't think she'll notice me anyways.

had a nice lunch at queensway. when we went to queensway, we met up TREDDY,LUCAS and JIAN SEN there. was surprised. soon we meet my 3 sistas JAS,JO adn VIVI. wow.... issit coincidental? the best part is later we met HENRY and gang. i was wondering issit realli that coincidental? its like almost half of the team is here at queensway at the same time, without even plannin to meet up together. anyways was kinda fascinated at the work of fate.

lets hope that fate work wonders on me too.




**gotta go to pack my stuff for camp**
**gonna miss her,will she miss me?prob not.**
** cya guys next week or something. try not to miss me ya? ha.....**

jus a lil something for her adn everyone:


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9Tuesday, April 05, 2005

had a dragonboat meeting jus now.talkin abt the MR500 race.watching and learning the mistakes we have made.got my first training tee.heard ryan talkin abt pple not deserving the tee. i think i'm one of those or the one he's referrin to. so therefore i shall start intensive training once again.

tomorrow's gonna be the start. gonna get those toned body.musn't lose out to the newcomers comin in, in abt 2 mths time.i won't rely on GNC supplements.all pure hard work.SHE will definitely be on my mind while gyming.

must put the determination into training now. can't stay at home and become a cyber geek anymore.*hopefully has the same determination to make HER mine*



**thats all for today.... peace out**
**realise i did not write much abt her today? decided to cut down on talking abt her here**
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9Monday, April 04, 2005

kinda in a blog craze now.
man i can't slp.....
somehow i think that my thoughts have been kinda childish and immature abt HER* wasn't like that since the last time........long long ago.......*. she seems far more mature. prob thats what seperates me frm her. (frm now on should change my thinkin and not look at things frm the surface). she jus seems so far .


*i jus thot of this while sittin half-dead before my table*
** she better not read this.firstly its not nicely done.secondly feel kinda stupid putting this up when i know she ain't gonna read it**

SHE
f is the word
comes after g,
but doesn't rhyme with me.
a is the noun
make her mine,how?
i is the word
aye , u rock my world.
t is the word
hoping that this feeling
last for eternity.
h is the word
can't think of any,
but only the smile on your face.
faith is something thats lacking,
from pursuing a dream with her.

*probably need some courage too*

anyways i came across this word AMBERCROMBI.(not sure abt the spelliing though). wonder what it means. could someone out there tell me?



**not slping......**
** should cut down on talking abt her.... **

Meet up with sports camp Gls on fri.they deicided to meet @ MARCHE. do u know that we have to spend a least $10 before they supposedly let us leave?i mean what if we dun? report us to the police? force us to buy more food? i mean like are they afraid that their i-can-find-cheaper-alternatives-at-nearby-coffeeshop food has no customers? man.... what kind of rule is that? ended up paying arn $12++ for a non-filling dinner.

fun fun fun....
after dinner we decided to play some pool. did i mention that i dun reallli play such games? anyways got thrahed by all of em...... finally got the kick of it( of the game ,not kick of losing). still ended up losing.anyways we had a great time.reached the mrt station @ arnd 11.30pm.

fun time ends....
i realised that the last train frm jurong east to my house is @ arnd 11.53pm.me,teresa and eugene decided to grab a cab instead.we flagged and flagged, man those taxis are either busy or on call. i say they purposely dun wanna pick us up. time is gettin closer and closer to midnight. we decided to call a cab instead.i was thinkin, right at the stroke of midnight, there will be magic everywhere, all the busy and on-call taxis will suddenly be available! stupid taxi drivers, all eyeing for the midnight charge. a few minutes after calling for a taxi, an availablr taxi FINALLY came to pick us up. we decided to forget abt the taxi we called.mins after we boarded the taxi, the taxi which we called started phoning eugene.ha.... no one dare to pick up the phone. don't bother abt those idiotic drivers.

finally...
reached home...... fare added up to $21 ..... man can u imagine how much we'll be payin if we took the on-call cab+ midnight charge..... OMG it'll cost a bomb.... an atomic bomb i say.
was kinda tired. showered. log in msn.*hoping to see her online*. but no luck.went to bed shortly.

ONce again the thought of her flooded thru ma mind. man is kinda hard not to think of her for once on a day ya. hmm.... i jus realised that i've said somethin not very nice abt HER in the previuos post. nah maybe its jus her characteristic and no worries, love will break all barriers.but however, the distance between me and HER seems to distant day by day. i hardly talk to her.(not that i dun want to but i jus have nothin to say, sometimes when talking to her i would jus say to myself " shuddup gareth..... u're makin a fool out of urself"). i jus wonder if she does even thinks abt me....or even writes something abt me in her blog(her blog which i haven been to,*actually she kinda not tell me her add, got no idea why*).

thinkin abt what my frene JANICE said abt me and her, somethin like nick carter and paris hilton. man i dun think that i'm any nick carter, but she's da paris in my dreams.(man..... this kinda embarrassing i say..... hope she doesn't read my blog, and if she does.... i think she doesn't know that i'm referring to her anyways).

ok... lets get back to the same old stuff. morning came. breakfast.gaming. and did i tell u everytime i go online i would always pray that she'll be online? even though i have nothin to talk to her, i would jus like to see her online, make sme feel "close" to her*kinda pathetic i say*, and she always seem busy or away.
i was flipping thru the newspaper when i saw this ad abt holiday getaways. man... how i wish i could bring her off to some tropical island or something, like Thailand or Bali.*thats if my parents allow*.i could show her some TLC.(tender loving care). who knows she'll be off with her frenes, cruising down some beach at thailand or something.ARgh....... i'm supposed to be talking abt my stuff, not thoughts abt her.... yikes...*think i should leave a column the next post onwards all abt her so for those not interested, u guys can skip it*

anyways, today went by jus fine. nothin interesting happen yet.
jus cross ma fingers and hope that one fine day, things will jus turn out fine for both of us.


**peace out..... **
**SHE still doesn't know!hope she gives me hints that either she like me or not.**
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9Sunday, April 03, 2005

Same old routine. wake up, breakfast, HOUSEWORK.
after housework, came gaming. could game without guilt. NO exams, no studies. actually even if there's exams or studies, i was also gaming,so that makes kinda no difference.

anyway i was lyin on my bed listening to music in the afternoon. listening to music,then this particular song played,obsession(no es amor).



i was wondering why SHE(SHE does't mean the chinese girl grp S.H.E, simply means the girl i like, like to refer her as SHE), anyways, was wondering why i do not really "clicked" with her or why we are only frenes.

i came up with several reasons:

• I'm not her type of guy.
• I'm not like her bunch of "COOL" frenes.
• i dun bother dressin up
• haven get her hp no.
• she's hot and famous (u realised hollywood stars mostly get together with stars too?)
• i'm just the plain and not happening guy next door.
• or jus simply, she likes me but doesn'y know that i like her too!(how i hope it was like this)
• i'm actually kinda disppointed at the fac that she uses words like f*#k and other crude words in her blog.*kinda unexpected frm sucha sweet lookin ger.*
• she has this funky, cool, chic characteristic which i have never realli come by.
• she doesn't look like those gers who has time for a relationship
• therefore doesn't have the look that she would settle down for a guy(she's lotsa guys queuing up jus to date her)

anyways, nothin more to write abt, other than more and more thoughts abt HER and probably bore u guys.

**peace out.......**

** SHE still don't know**

Thurs was kinda crap for me, everything was fine till night when my mother brought back a letter frm YFC. i kinda guessed what was in the letter, the letter of discontinuation. i was prepared for it, when i open the letter and read it, i dunno whether to feel relieved or sad. indeed the letter was the discontinuation letter. i took the blow to my stride and was disppointed. the letter said that i was terminated due to the lack of time, as the date due for my 10 sorties is two weeks frm now. and why am i so slow? (u can read frm my previous 1 or 2 post)
i feel so cursed and unlucky, but things got worse when my mother read it, it was like giving her a grade slip with all Fs.

she was more disppointed than me, soon after the disappointment, comes the scolding, felt like she's blaming me and saying that i'm not the least bit of sad. WAT the heck! not sad? me to blame? wat the heck!bloody hell i'm sad but i was prepared for it thats y, i should be feeling worse than my mom as i was the one doing all the running, even during the case when my flight was cancelled.all the while i was doing the running, the memorising of the notes, and i'm NOT SAD? i was so furious at the moment. my father came home shortly and the same expression and wateva repeated, i decided to go to the toliet to take a cold shower to wash off all the bad mood away.

they do not even let me off when i was eating dinner, they started blaming me*seems like blaming to me*,t=having like YFC is like my-one-and-only-life, without-it-i'm-doom conversations. they even sugested going down personally to YFC on fri to appeal. i knew that it will not work out, i told them but they would not listen.i knew that even if they allow me back, i have to finish 7 sorties within 2 weeks*practically impossible*.

Fri came and my mother dragged me down to YFC. we were there early. made appointment with the operations manager, OM. the appeal soon became like a plea. i felt like jus standin up and get the hell out of the room. my mom made me felt like some kind of begger of some sort. in fact i dun care abt getting back to YFC. being out of YFC is a form of liberation. soon after arnd a hr of gruelling begging and negotiating, we ended up at the OPs room where pple started staring at us. made me feel like telling my mother " i don't give a damn abt this YFC shit, jus shuddup and lets go."*but i decided to shut the hell up*.
soon my mother knew that she was on the losing end and eventually gave up. i was so so so happy when she left YFC. no more nagging and beggin. ENOUGH of it.
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