Like me.Love me.Hate me.

LONELY

Lonely I'm so lonely,
I have nobody,For my owwnnn
I'm so lonely,
I'm Mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
For my owwnnn
I'm so lonely,

Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got to have one good girl whose always been there like ya
Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leaveI woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side,
coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I wasFeenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years,
tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuzEver since my girl left me, my whole life came crashin

I'm so lonely (so lonely),
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life,
after all I put u thru u still stuck
Around and stayed by my side,
what really hurt me is I broke ur heart,
baby you were a good girl and I had no right,
IReally wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl

Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely

Never thought that id be alone,
I didnt hope you'd be gone this long,
I jus want u to call my phone,
so stop playing girl andCome on home (come on home),
baby girl I didn't mean to shout,
I want me and you to work it out,
I never wished Id everHurt my baby,
and its drivin me crazy cuz...

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)

This is the lyrics of a song LONELY by AKON , its a very nice song that kinda depletes what situation i was in. anyways today i had to send off one of my close frenes YAN WEN , she's going Australia to study.*hope she like the kangaroos and stuff there*. Missed out the chance to see her in person, cos we guys have to wait for one of our buddy HWAD to arrive, but he was kinda late,but we don't blame him for being late.*even though we are kinda disappointed not able to see her in person,we managed to give her a call*. after the heartwrenching departure, we wanted to go CHANGI VILLAGE to grab a bite, man the cab fare there made me ponder " why the heck do we go changi village to eat when the cab uncle practically ate all our money". we had a surcharge of $4..... man that $4 could mean 2 plates of NASI LEMAK.....

but what the heck..... we arrive there neither shortly nor lengthy, cos the whole time i was in the cab my eyes were fixed on that slender, curvacious,sleek body of that wretched meter.we had a nice time there. we were hoping to catch a glimpse of the "night life" there, but to no avail. we had a hell of a ride back home.*guess the ride back home was the best part of the day*.relishing old and yet memorable memories. we were having such a great time, laughing and jokin that the uncle opposite us in the train also started laughing too.*laughter is contagious*. slowly one by one we departed to our own ways, but memories still remains.

*note to YAN WEN: DON'T YOU DARE FORGET US OK?*

*nothin much to post now.... peace out*
*most importanly*and sadly*, SHE still doesn't know*

Today's my last paper,
finally after the long hours of stressing *and a lil gaming*..... finally the judge ment day is here, its the day of my temporary freedom. as my title suggest, i've to pay a hefty price.
THE PAPER IS SO SO SO........irritating. i've done the past yr paper and it was similar, but the worst part is that, I FORGOT HOW TO DO them again.*man should have spent lesser time on gaming, but what the heck?*. after the mind boggling,brain draining paper.i've finally given up the fight with the "darkside" and passed up the paper, after that.... i feel so free like a bird.

Usually pple would go town or something after their last paper, but for me and ERVIN we decided to go gym. ha... today's gym session proved to me that it's been very long since i've train.i got so easily tired.

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ha.... once again i'm back... miss me?
anyway i'm here to update u guys on gareth's simple and yet not boring life. okok lets back track to valentines' day.

Valentines' day USED to be the happiest and best day in my life, but ever since...... it hasn't been either the best nor the happiest day of my life.firstly the girl i wanted to as out hasn't been contactable for months, after CNY she practically disappeared frm my MSN MESSENGER list.i could easily get her number but NO i rather get it frm her myself.ok i passed Valentines' day at my buddy's AJAX house playing ROSE ONLINE. Isn't that bad after all, spending time with my buddies.Valentines' day passed by without any present taken or given.Can't blame , most of my friends are all attached, except the ugly duckling(refer to me) left on the rack.but i don't mind as long as i have my buddies with me, gf is jus a bonus after all.

Next came my super duper superfragilistic unlucky sortie at YOUTH FLYING CLUB. i had my sortie 2 at 15 feb, and my next sortie came shortly after a weeks time.ok whe i went there, my flight was cancelled due to weather, understandable next week came and there is was again, my flight was cancelled again, it happen again not once ,not twice but a friggin 4 times(same reason every time it was cancelled, WEATHER!) arGH...... so so so fustrated, finally on the 5th attempt on my 3 sortie, the weather was fine , i had my fav instuctor (same instructor who also have to put up with the same unlucky chain of happenings), and guess wat? the chain of unlucky happenings didn't stop there, the weather was fine, everything is good, got my fav instructor, guess wat? i was late for 10 mins and they cancelled my flight! argh..... (partly my fault cos i was so panicky that i forgot to phone the OPs room to tell them). when i heard that my flight was cancelled again, i was thinkin, is someone tryin to stop me from flying my 3rd sortie? feels do awfully weird and twisted as it seems really wickedly coincidental.finally i flew my 3rd sortie , without my fav instuctor. phew... thought my chain of unlucky happenings is gonna continue.

Next came my DB(dragon boat),training,missed out on flying and now my training? man... i'm so cursed, was kinda sick for arnd a week or two, only came for trainin occasionally. felt so so bad,(hope derrick would forgive me,ah huat too).was abt to break down arnd the few weeks when i couldn't fly and go training, nothin seems rite, everything felt like it was going against me.

After months and months of absence, that gal i was refering to jus now, finally logged onto MSN, she must be very very busy. anyway my frene's advised me to find other targets as this one is jus a tad to hard to get,(she's hot,famous and friendly, man which guy dun want her?). anyway after serious thought, i thot maybe its jus the right thing to do. (prob i should jus admire frm afar.)told my ** abt it, and guess wat? my ** is actually getting somewhere with her relationship with someone, wish her all the best, hope that guy treat her better than me, or else.......(seriously its hard for me to let go, but i can't be selfish, therefore, i could only wish her all the best, prob become her guardian angel....)feels like an old wound open adn never close again, feels like a stab thru the heart, salt to the wound.......

next sad thing that happen to me, a school mate,BLEN,was hospitalised,even though i don't realli know him well,(only knew him better in PJC 1st 3 mths,thru rugby,b4 that all i knew that he was frm my sec sch).when i heard abt the news, my heart jus sank,actually wanted to go visit him but something came up at the last min and i missed the visit, and that is the largest and most friggin regret that i think could happen to me, i jus missed the last time i could ever see him. so busy with my schedule, no time to go down and visit him and when i hada the time, another news came to me, he just passed away, at that moment, i felt so so so bad that i felt like killing myself, felt so so regretful.now all i can do is pray for him.rest in peace man.....

sorry guys for all the sad and pathetic things i'm pouring here,no choice its my life...

hmmm.... wat else.....yup next is something happy unlike the previous few happenings,i had a bbq party at my buddy BEN's house, called over a few of my best buddies i could have in my life, the four pretty gers,HUI HUA,CHRISTIE,YAN WEN and GRACE,followed by BEN, HWAD, CHARLES,CALEB and RAUF. and to TIM.W happy birthday man, forgot to wish u when we were there. anyway this party is a birthday cum farewell party,a few days later is SHIDAH'S & RAUF'S birthday,HAPPY BIRTHDAY GUYS. YAN WEN is the one leaving us.... *sob sob* she's leaving for down under australia, (why is everyone going austrailia?). couldn't bear for YAN WEN to leave. we stayed in BEN'S house thru the night and only slept when it was arnd 4 plus in the morning.we had truly a fun and enjoyable night there. love,kisses, old memories(more of old crushes, HWAD u should know what i'm talking bout) and dirty dancing too! ha..... what more could i ask for ?anyway we have to part our ways when dawn broke. YAN WEN, dun forget me ya? for i won't forget u.u will always be in my heart.

was talkin to RAUF abt eating supplements frm GNC adn gym stuff, i jus dun get it, why is everyone eating it? it feels so fake and it is not good for your health, practically all my team mates in DB is taking supplements except me(for all i know). prob thats also why i'm the weakest in the team too. i rather do it all by myself and not let some supplement aid me, pure hard work.

i went clubbing with my clubbin bunch alas on thur 17th, man we had a great time, COCCOLATTE had a ACJC & CJC party going on.man the dance floor is packed to the brim man almost couldn't breathe. danced with ERVIN'S frend JILL, she knows hoe to shake her booty,(fyi i didn't go there for the gers, i went there to have a gr8 time adn its also bcos of my frenes who are going).its quite an accomplishment for the ugly duckling to actually find a dance partner.thanks JILL for dancing with me.had a fun time there, letting down my hair and jus dance like there's no tomorrow, i enjoyed myself to the max, prob also bcos of all the recent unhappy happenings i've mentioned above, clubbing unwinds me..... promised my buddy RAUF not to drink, and thus i should keep the promise, dun worry bro...... da godfather's in da house.

another unlucky thing happen to me this yest morning. i was supposed to check if i'm flying on sat, i wanted to check on fri, but my net had some prob so i didn't check, thinkin that i won't get the saturday sortie as usual,i didn't check.till sat mornin when my net's ok, OMG..... y? Y? y? WHY? i had a sortie on sat! 9 am! and i check it at 9.05 am..... argh..... after that i though..... i think i'll be kicked out soon, being the slowest in class(due to the unlucky sortie 3) and now absent, i think i'll be booted off, lets jus see... will update ya on this.

after the disappointin absence for flying, i rather to DB training...... Db trainin was enjoyable yest.being the last ground trainin for the yr 3 and stuff, felt kinda disappointed seeing them leave us..... i guess at some point i ur life pple is jus gonna leave u,(jus like **) but they'll also remain in my heart.

had yet another bbq with my sister's collegue at my house. had a gr8 time. had a couple of burns here and there. but was kinda proud of the fire i set up.looking at the other family on the other pit, i felt so so porud of myself,they spent so musch time setting up the fire adn stuff and their pit started of like a bunsen burner but ended up like some volcano, turnin their chicken into charcoal in secs.looking at mine, their fire's inferior compared to my flame grilling flames, turning each and every piece of barbeque into mouthwatering food,(reminds me of BURGER KING's flame grilled patties) ......

(i think this is like my longest post yet)

(nothin much to say..... gotta go and sleep too.... nites everyone.... love ya.... peace out.....)

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